Low Blood Pressure Fun

Last week I fell asleep on the couch and missed my medication.  Unfortunately it really affected my blood pressure.  The second I woke up, I had something to eat and took my Beta Blocker right away, and usually by the next day I’m back to me.  This time hasn’t been the case.

I went to my mom’s not even able enough to put my walker in the van, and went through terrible waves of nausea and weakness.

I stayed at my mom’s over night by couldn’t sleep from the symptoms until around 5am even though I went to bed at 8pm the night before.

The next day I went home and mom picked me up a new shovel.  I had to use my wheel chair all day which I absolutely hate, but I kept having mottled feet and feeling like I was going to drop.

Today I was finally able to have a shower and get some normal stuff around the home picked up.  The shower did me in big time and I won’t be able to vacuum like I wanted, but at least I’m squeaky clean!

Tomorrow I have a Social Service Worker student and the new one coming by in the morning, and then I have my family doctor appointment.  Hopefully she’ll have some answers for me.

Hope you all are well.  I’m not unhappy, just hoping to feel as good as I was again!  Watching Dexter and OMG so good

Ttyl!

Ash,

All Moved Into the New Place!

I did NOT intend to be gone so long, but I’ve been having a real issue with my old phone company, and getting them to shut off my phone… it’s still hooked up too! lol.

I woke up the morning of my move… with the flu!  I’ve had the flu shot, and so had Amanda and Nick, but something they both got, and then my mom, I eventually caught too even though I was being so good about hermitting away!  I was able to do the move still and actually help a bit, but by night time I was in bed and up all night sick lol.  I didn’t sleep for the first few nights I was there bc of being sick, but it went away quickly and never got too horrible.

My fibro has been amazing… knock on wood.  Actually Zeb from The Manly Potsy’s said he heard something about rice flaring up pain… and I figured why not give it a shot?  I always eat rice, so I haven’t had it, and no major pain like I was!  So I’m considering next week trying it again and seeing if the pain comes back or not.

My POTS has been doing way better since being moved too.  Not superb, still have to use a stool to do dishes and a seat in the shower, but I was able to dust and do the windows I kid you not for the first time in almost 2 years!!  It felt great to not have to have someone else do it for me!  And the dishes I mentioned… first time in months!  Yes I have a PSW I’m not a dirty slob lol.  I’ve even been shoveling my stoop outside my apartment.  Nothing for the average person since it only takes about 10 minutes, but AMAZING for me!  I’ve had more good days in the short two weeks I’ve been here, then I had in the last 2 years at my last apartment.

It’s nice and bright and lots of natural light gets in.  So much nicer than a basement!  I loved my last apartment.  It was great.  Had tons of storage and was big!  But it was too much for me to take care of, and was becoming depressing and hard to breathe since the mold came out!  Ew!  It just feels so much healthier here!

I’m still having my rough days of my eyes randomly rolling to the back of my head… but I’m kind of used to it now LOL.  I think the worst of my symptoms is the nausea for sure and over heating!  So I am definitely talking to the Cardiologist about putting my on something so I don’t constantly feel like I’m going to yack.

Today, I had my PSW over who smoked out the entire front of the apartment cooking lol.  We had to open the windows and have fans blasting, and I even left that area bc it was choking me like crazy!  I was still coughing through my dentist appointment later that morning.  First I sat in the dentist chair into a puddle of water lol, then almost got banged by the light in the head, then my poor dentist smacked her head off it, and when she was meaning to spray water in my mouth while she was working, accidentally sprayed it at herself and we all got into a huge laughing fit and had to calm down before we could go on lol.  I had a lot of work done in and around my gums, and she whitened my teeth too so they look nice and clean!  I have to be on this prescription mouth wash that staves off infection and my mouth was crazy sore once the freezing wore off, but I’m feeling pretty good now.  Still swollen but at least I can smile with my whole mouth instead of just half rofl.

I got back and the guy was hooking up my phone, internet and cable, and the guys from the Brick showed with my new couch   I’ll post a picture later, but it’s a light stone/ beige color and really comfy   I just finished spraying the last coat of stain resistance crap on it.

My dad is coming up this weekend, and he’ll get to see the apartment   I’m really excited for him and my step mom Lois to see it.  I think he’ll like it too

Anyway, it’s late and I have a lot to do tomorrow, so I need to be up early.  Will take pictures of the apartment as I finish more rooms.  I still need to hang curtains, paintings, etc.

Ash,

PS Got approved for my moving stuff from disability!  Wahoo!

Cardiologist Appointment

 

Only our 2nd big snow fall so far this year!

My Grams took me into my heart doctor today bc my mom’s boss made her come in for a meeting at work.  I prefer my mom to be there bc she comes in the room with me, so that I don’t forget all the things the doc. says.  Stupid pots brain.  I hope to god she won’t have to miss my Neurologist appointment at the end of the month.

I like my cardiologist.  The odd time, which is rare, when he doesn’t know what I’m talking about, he goes off on a big discussion about something totally off what I was asking, usually something I already know about, and I just nod and smile like woooo interesting! lol.

My heart rate flip flopped all through the appointment, and have had chest pain and fluttering ever since I got home and was able to relax.  I’m okay with the appointment, bc I’ll see him again in 6 weeks instead of 3-4 months like usual.  I’m glad to see him so soon again, bc he didn’t take me off of Bisoprolol.  He doubled the medicine again, now to 10mg, which I know for a fact wasn’t all that smart, bc potsy’s should be on the lowest dose possible of a beta blocker possible bc it can make us very sick from being on a medicine we weren’t technically designed to be on.

I asked him again to tell me what kind of pots I had.  As in Hyperadrenic, PD Pots, or the combo type.  He didn’t understand my question, and now that I’m thinking about it, obviously didn’t when I asked the first time I met him, bc both times he started explaining NCS to me.  And then said, it’s a very severe type of pots. I already know what that is lol.  It’s the reason I faint, I get it.  I am going to ask the Neurologist at the end of this month and see if he knows since he supposedly is a pots specialist.  We shall see… since this has been the question asked to everyone so far, and I find out just how much they really know, when they look at me like I’m on crack lol.

I asked him how much more salt than a normal person, should a person with pots have in a day.  He said to add a bag of personalized size chips to my daily diet.  I have high cholesterol which he doesn’t want to give me medicine for, which I still question, and he’s telling me to add chips?  I said this to my sister, and even the first thing she said was that!  So when I reminded him of it, he said eat salty soup instead lol.  But now that I’m home of course, I’m thinking I don’t need to bc my blood pressure is in the normal range, and I don’t want to risk making it high again.

He had no idea and was completely stumped on why I would pass out for 27 hours.  He made a good point in saying it wasn’t the NCS bc it gets regulated the second your flat out on your back.  He could see if I couldn’t get up for that long if I passed out every time I tried to get back up, but I didn’t.  The longest case of that he had seen was an hour and a half.  He was thinking seizer (sp?), but still isn’t thinking it’s that bc even then it wouldn’t be that long.  Yet again, might find out from the Neurologist.

Anyway, next week is free, then the next is the dentist work… eek! and then in the last week of February I meet the almighty guru … at least I’m hoping he is

Alright, very tired, gonna relax with my Zeusy

Ash,

Family Doctor Appointment

Hey!  Sorry I didn’t write right away, but I just didn’t have the energy to sit at the computer and write out all I wanted to mention.

Susan picked me up and took me to my doctor‘s appointment.  I still can’t get used to how willing to help my doctor is!  I am used to my last doctor throwing away and not listening to me and rushing like he needed to pee! lol.  It’s so remarkable to have someone willing and wanting to do everything she can… someone who actually cares how I’m doing!  I am truly lucky to have her as my doctor.

She told me to try Volteran for my fibromyalgia pain.  Have any of you tried it?  What is your experience with gels and creams to help with pain?  I noticed it helped my lower hip/butt area pain, but not my hands and fingers.  Mind you I didn’t rest them either.

I got her to check out my knee.  When you have any sort of chronic problem with your body, no matter what it is, you know when something is different.  It was a little different of a pain in my knee from the rest, and is almost constant and by far more painful.  I was cool with just leaving as is, if she said it was fibromyalgia as well, but I wanted to make sure it wasn’t something else considering I was told when I was younger, I may some day need knee surgery.  I come to find out when I am sitting I get this almost restless feeling in my left side and I twist and sounds like my hip cracks… that’s not been my hip.  It’s my knee popping back into place! Lol.  My doctor just moved my leg three different ways and POP!!!  So apparently my knees grind into my leg bones.  Not arthritis, but Patellofemoral something or other lol.  Nothing can really be done, medically, but you knees are weakened and make your knees more prone to injury.  The only thing you can do is these Patellofermoral physical therapy exercises that help strengthen the knee joints, etc.

She also switched my Pantaprazol for my Crohn’s pain, to instead of a sodium form of the pill, to a magnesium form of it.  I actually keep forgetting to try it bc my pill box for the week is filled with the old one and I keep just automatically taking it lol.  But I will let yas know if there is any difference when I give it a go.  But I was pretty mad to find out there were crohn’s ulcers, scrapes, etc. seen in my Ilium that they didn’t mention to me when I was there.  They had only said inflammation.  There were also some ulcers found where my stomach attaches to the Ilium too when they said it was fine.  I think even if nothing is to be worried about or done about it, that I at least have the right to know what’s happening in my body.

I also looked at my sleep study info.  Apparently I slept less than 3 hours, and woke up 83 times in that time!  The recommended me getting a night guard bc I grind my teeth… done, they also said I have restless leg syndrome even once I’m asleep so I should get meds for that.  I said no bc I know it can keep me up at night, but it’s not there every night, and it’s not reason I haven’t slept properly for the last 14 years.  It just showed up in the last year.  So my only option is back to my psychiatrist who had been helping me before with my depression medicine and sleep med.s and start trying more sleeping pills.  She’s the one that has the long list of ones I’ve already tried… I have no idea what all I have.

I have no idea why, but it’s 3am and my cat is screaming and driving me nuts!!!  I think he’s bored, but he’s pissing me off and probably my neighbors too! lol.

Amanda and I went and saw the new Natalie Portman and Ashton Kutcher movie… No Strings Attached.  Very funny and definitely good.  I wouldn’t recommend going to the theater to see it, but definitely rent it when it comes out!  This weekend we are hoping to go see the new Anthony Hopkins movie, the Rite.  I can’t wait!

Next up is my Cardiologist appointment next Friday.  Should be interesting to see what he says.

Talk to yas later!

Ash,

 

Busy Bee!

My lease for my apartment here is up March 1st, but I was told I can move in any time into the new one.  I said I wanted to wait until the floor in the bathroom was redone.  Would give me time to pack without actually killing myself rushing, and I wouldn’t have to worry about trying to unpack, worry about Zeus getting outside, while  work men were coming in and out of the new place.

My sis came up and helped one evening with books movies, some bedding and clothes that were hard for me to get at with pots, and Susan’s student Aarifa like I mentioned as well, came by for an hour and helped get all the dishes out of the kitchen on the highest shelves, since I’m notorious for passing out in the kitchen it seems like.  I’ve now packed everything else except the clothes, and bathroom stuff, etc. I’m still using until up until the move.

As I’ve been packing, I’ve been cleaning the walls, and shelves, etc. and getting rid of the stuff I’m not bringing with me.  The only thing I hadn’t been doing was the carpet bc yet again I broke a vacuum!  I don’t know how I do this, but I just give it to my mom and she always figures out what’s wrong to fix it.  My red one she gave me that was light weight that broke, she couldn’t figure it out though!  So I had to borrow my grandma’s vacuum until I get out to get a new one.  I was cool with that until I saw the thing!  I a HUGE one and crazy heavy!  It works great, but has taken me three days and help from my mom to be able to vacuum this apartment lol.  I am finally done until everything gets moved out, and then I’ll have to do it again.

The reason I bothered to do it at all, is I am having the rental company tomorrow come here, to do a last inspection before the move.  With Zeus’ hair, and mine now partly falling out, there  was hair everywhere!  The vacuum has one of the big ass canisters you just have to empty… I’ve emptied it twice now and it’s full again lol.  That’s how bad it’s been since Christmas!  But I was just using a carpet sweeper… that yes, I broke too lol so I don’t think it was getting everything up, just what was on the surface.

Today, I went to the dentist for a teeth cleaning, and to get some cavities filled, but they got freaked out about my mitral valve prolapse, so I have to come back for that.  Normally bc I have horrible sensitivity, they freeze my mouth for even the cleaning, but they were freaked out to do that!  So I got a basic cleaning and some whitening done in between me being ready to punch the sweet hygienist for the pain.  And now I have to call the local dental college here, about getting a treatment done with freezing, so they can get in and under the gums bc they’re so inflamed they need two appointments alone to make sure they get done properly and completely!  Ahhh   I asked them what I was doing wrong.  I use special tooth paste for my teeth, I brush daily, I floss, wtf!!!!  So bc I have all these digestive wrecking illnesses, they’re causing the acid reflux problem I mentioned… so that, my medicine that’s supposed to help that makes my mouth dryer, along with other medicine I’m on, so it’s destroying my teeth.  And because my lovely immune system is a piece of crap, the damage isn’t able to heal on its own like my dentist hoped, it’s only making matters worse, causing them to have to do even more work!!!  So I go back in a few weeks to get the cavities and breaking … yes breaking teeth fixed, and then I am going to be getting a hold of the college for 3 more appointments.  Very stressful, bc my dentist warned me that all this work is going to make my teeth in the back even more sensitive, but obviously the work needs to be done, so there’s no way to help that.  At this point, the sensitivity is the least of the problems to worry about.  So long as my teeth are healthy.

Next week, I go to my doctors appointment about my fibromyalgia and sleep clinic study and getting her to fill out some forms for disability to prove that I am sick, and that’s why I’m moving (even though in order to get disability in the first place you obviously have to prove your sick) but whatever!  Lol.

Then the week after that, I go back in to see the Cardiologist.  Obviously the Bisoprolol is STILL not doing it’s job after almost a year.  I think it’s been 9 months now.  So he better switch my beta blocker or I’m going to go absolutely bat shit crazy!… if bat shit can make you crazy! haha.

The just after my next dental appointment, I go in to see the Neurologist!  Hopefully he’ll have some ideas   I’m really hoping he’ll be willing to do some more autonomic testing on me than the cardioloy type stuff I’ve had done to get more answers about my pots.  We shall see.  I’m excited

And yes at some point in between, I’ll be moving lol.  Actually, tomorrow, the student and I are going to compare dates of when it will work.  So I am thinking if it’s good with them, moving a week tomorrow.

I’ll write more next week!

Ash,

Ahhhh Relaxation!

I had a GREAT birthday.  I gotta be honest, I didn’t feel too great though.  I got my sleeping messed up the day before, and was really later for my two major med.s and it messed my POTS up a bit.  I guess that’s a good sign that maybe my Beta Blocker is working though!

I went to my mom’s after her and Nick decorated the place.  He was going to do a Mad Hatter theme for me, but the poor little guy was so sick.  I guess he was up during the night with a fever of 102!  He was all excited to surprise me when I got there, but he ended up falling asleep on the couch.  You could tell he felt rough.

My sister and Nick surprised me by buying me way too much!  I’ve been looking for years, for a pumpkin scented candle, in one of those glass containers with a lid, and she found me one   It smells so yummy!  She also gave me the HellBlazer comics I picked out when we were shopping a while ago, a note book bc I’m always doing to do lists, and the little shit got me a gift card for Chapters so I could put some more books on my EReader!  I picked out Prophecy, the second digi novel by the guy who does CSI, and Mini Shopaholic.  I can’t wait to read them!!!

They had balloons on the wall, and streamers coming down from the light fixture above the table, and we had a yummy boiled dinner and my Grams homemade wackie cake which I LOVE!!!!  I also got a nice card in the mail from my friend Megan, and a picture of her and her daughter, who is growing up WAY too fast.  Speaking of pictures, I got from Amanda, Nick’s school photos too   So I have them all over my apartment now and one in my wallet to show off with my other nephew and nieces photos

I didn’t go to see the apartment yesterday bc I have a cold still, and now feels like it’s getting worse.  I could have gone, I just didn’t want to risk getting Susan my Social Service Worker sick.

This morning Marlene my Personal Support Worker is coming.  She’ll be here in about a half hour, and other than that I have nothing on the agenda until I got to the dentist in about a week and a half.  I’m not going to go to the Pauls family Christmas dinner tomorrow bc I’m feeling pretty rough, and I do not want to risk getting my uncle sick when he’s been so badly run down.  My dad will give me a nice guilt trip, but by the look of Nick yesterday, I’d say Amanda won’t be driving out there either, so he’ll just have to deal with it.

Anyway, I hope you’re all doing well, and I will write again soon, if not after my dentist appointment.  Take Care!

Ash,

 

Being Haunted By Bisoprolol …

I’m still on it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LOL.  I feel like I’m never going to convince him, he just keeps convincing me to stay on it!  *shakes fists* lol.

Alright, so today was my Cardiologist appointment.  My doctor came in, and I explained that my heart rate is better, but I still feel like crap.  So him and I went for a walk around the hospital!  My blood pressure is low for me, but still more than good numbers.  Apparently my heart rate at 85-100bpm resting is still considered too high.  He wants to double my dose of Bisoprolol to 5mg and see if it will bring my heart rate down to around 70-75, so that it will only go to 100-110 standing, and doing normal daily living.  Right now just doing normal stuff, I’ve been lucky having it at only 130-140 bc normally it would be closer to 180bpm.  I actually laughed when he said a normal person without pots, has a standing heart rate of around 90-100!  So low!!!  He said I’ll probably never get to that, but he’s going to fight to get it as close as possible, without compromising my sitting heart rate.  So here we go again!  Bc it took me a month and a couple weeks to get over the horrible effects of 2.5mg, I won’t see him again until February.  So I am most likely going to be miss puke and tired face until around New Years.  Whippee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tonight, Amanda and I are going to the mall to pick up our own Christmas gifts for mom.  Her and Grams have gotten us a couple things, but wants us to just pick out and get the rest lol.  Works for us!  We’re going tonight, on crazy sale night, bc tomorrow, it’s supposed to be freezing rain, etc.

I got Amanda’s Christmas gift yesterday when it came in to Home Hardware.  I got her the Peanuts 60 years collectible Charlie Brown‘s Christmas Tree.  She’s always loved it, so I found it and decided to get it for her.  I gave it to her yesterday, bc what’s the point, if she can’t use it to decorate with now?  I’m glad she liked it

Before I left for my appointment today, I had Marlene my Personal Support Worker, and also the guy from Shopper’s Home Health Care.  He dropped off my grab bar for the shower for me!  I’ll test it out tomorrow and see how it works   I just got the suctioned one, for until I move (that could be any time) and then I’ll try with the installation ones.

I also received in the mail, even though on Chapters website, it is classified as not even having been shipped yet, the book, “What Your Doctor May Not Tell You About Autoimmune Disorders.  I’ve only read the first chapter, and already learned so many interesting facts so far!

Alright, gotta head out to get ready to go with my Sweet Cheeks.

Laters.

Ash,

As Per Usual!

I’m not sick…. looking around quick looking for a piece of wood to knock on lol.  After more than two weeks, I’ve finally gotten rid of majority of the bronchitis and strep throat!  Yeah!!!!!!!

All I’m hearing about is Thanksgiving.  I figure the American one is this weekend?  What we do in Canada, is have the weekend off and the Monday following it.   Is that the same for you?

So as per usual the weeks never go as we plan.. and definitely not as I do hehe.  Tomorrow I am doing my Christmas shopping with my dad and step mom, and grabbing some cat food from the animal clinic for Zeus.  Wednesday, I have Marlene coming, and the guy from Shoppers Home Health Care with the grab bar for the shower for me… which reminds me I need to clean the shower BOO lol.

Thursday, my mom is off, so she is taking me to grab my sister’s Christmas gift.  I can’t say what it is obviously, but I’m excited to get it for her.  I have it on a rain check bc they ran out.  So I now have just my parents and step mom to buy for, and Amanda and I have a good idea for dad and Lois so it’s basically just my mom left.

no idea why it’s on a tilt lol was having camera issues

And Friday is the Cardiologist appointment.  Nothing exciting happening there, just going to get a new Beta Blocker to try since Bisoprolol doesn’t work.  And when it did… it made me sicker than a dog.

My mom did come over Friday night, and she helped me get my Christmas tree up.  It looks great I love lowering the lights and just relaxing with it.  I have all the Christmas presents so far wrapped too.  We both slept in, and then did a little shopping the next day.  I finally found ginger candies!  I haven’t tried them yet, so I’ll let yas know if they’re any good for nausea when I do.

Anyway, besides that not much else is going on.  Just been at my mom’s visiting with her and my sis and nephew.  Nick’s been such a cutie pie.

Next week is the dentist, and my birthday, and the Pauls family Christmas dinner near where my dad lives.  So I’ll have to do my grocery shopping asap and get whatever I need to bring with me for it.

Hope you all have a great Thanksgiving weekend, and will write more towards the end of the week!  *hugs*

Ash,

Can I start Panicking Now?????????

me and Jasper snoozing at mom's

I just got the call from the hospital.  They SAID I’d have a 3 week wait after the call.. nope I have 4 days.  I go in this Friday for 9am, scopes start at 9:30am!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Sad thing is, I don’t get paid until Friday, so I’m going to have to borrow the money for the prep to take on Thursday!  OMG I hate this lol.  I’m literally shaking just thinking of having to get the damn things done!  Lower scope.. annoying bc the prep is so draining the day before, but I’m freaked out to get a scope shoved down my throat!!!  My sis said it’s so much easier out of the two, but I just don’t want to deal with this.

My mom understood how I was feeling, and said she’d take the day off so she can be the one to take me… and this short of notice, I don’t think she’ll be able to.  I hope she can, but I doubt she will. Oh Bloody hell thank GOD!  She literally just called me and she is pretty sure she can switch the shift.  That’s awesome.  And she’s going to get my prep for me and JELLO since it’s the only thing I can eat.

Well besides that freak out, I went to turn on my cell this morning after not using it in months, and the damn thing turns on but the screen is destroyed!  Not sure why, it hasn’t been banged around.  So I’m going to have to call Virgin Wireless and see if I can get it fixed, since I have about a year and a half left on the contract.  I have voice mail and text messages I can’t get at because of the screen lol.

Also, the Pauls family dinner will be coming up soon.  I’m supposed to bring cranberries or something… can’t remember lol or a jello and marshmallow salad which we have every year there… and I have no idea what all is in it bc I always thought it was gross lol.  So I’ll probably get the recipe from one of my aunts.  I honestly wasn’t planning on going this year.  I think I’ve only missed a family dinner once, and it was bc I had the flu when I was really young, but with me being SO run down, I just don’t want to deal with going out there.  Plus I know I’ll see my nieces and oldest nephew at my dad’s on Christmas Eve, since they’re the ones I would want to see most.  I guess I’ll decide before then.

Also, I have to go to the Gyno.  on the 4th of November.  It’s not too far from my place so that’s good.  I think I’m just getting a pelvic ultrasound done… can’t remember it’s been so long lol.  I don’t go to the Allergist until mid December, and then the only other tests I have coming up is the check up with the Cardiologist at the beginning to middle of November, and then with the G.I. team for my Crohn’s Disease sometime after the tests this Friday (AAAHHHH!!! lol)

Anyway, I’m going to head out and call my dentist about setting up a date to get my molds done for my mouth guard.. at some point! lol.

Ash,

Rainy Fall

Just finishing up watching CSI and waiting for Grey’s Anatomy & Private Practice.

Today the guys from Shopper’s Home Health Care and the personal support worker intake girl came over and I got my new walker!  I have to apply online when the guy sends the quote for the grab bars, but that’s cool.  For the walker, I chose metallic blue lol  and it’s tall enough for me to possibly do dishes and cook, but still short enough that my feet or firm on the ground and the blood won’t pool down my legs like they do on the bar stool.  It’s cute.. for a walker LOL.

Afterward, Amanda picked me up to take me to get the recumbent bike, but the guy lives out of town so now he’s going to drop it off within the next couple weeks, when he can get his truck from his dad.  I can’t wait to get it!!!

So Amanda and I went to The Dollar Store, and got some Halloween decorations and picked up some stuff I needed since I wasn’t well enough to go grocery shopping.  Mom works tomorrow, so if she’s well enough, we may go after she gets off around dinner… which would be nice bc I have carrots and soup lol.

So Amanda, Nick and I hung out and I got tons of photos.  I napped for a while and was so dizzy when I got back everyone came upstairs and hung out while I laid in my mom’s bed feeling like I was going to raulph lol.  Was fun though

Then mom and I went out to the store, and came back here with subs and relaxed for a bit before she left to go to the nursing home.  My Gramps has fallen twice getting out of bed the last few days, and apparently he is going down hill fast.  My Grams was really teary about it today, I felt so bad for her.  My mom was going by to see for herself how he was doing, but he has a chest infection, so unless absolutely necessary, Amanda and I can’t go see him in case we catch it with out crap immune systems

Tomorrow, Grams is taking me to see my Cardiologist.   The only way I was able to make the whole 2 months.. which felt like years on Bisoprolol, was bc my resistance to medications set in, and it stopped working.  Woo hoo! Lol never been so happy to see it stop working.  So he’ll probably try me on a new medication, and I’m going to ask about trying Florinef.

I’m back home now and chilling with my man Zeus.  It’s been raining a lot lately which is weird for Belleville.  It never stays long, but it’s been crazy all day.  But it’s supposed to be back to sunny tomorrow!

Alright, going to head out!  Will write more after my appointment tomorrow!

Ash,