I’m a pretty positive person. I try to look at bad days as only temporary and remind myself that the next day will only get better. This week is definitely putting that statement for a ride! Every day I wake up to feeling more and more terrible than I did the day before. My highlight from today… being able to finally have a damn shower! Mind you my hair didn’t get washed, but my body isn’t smelly! lol.
I am getting a bunch of cleaning stuff when I go grocery shopping at the end of this week so I can do the big overhaul cleaning of the apartment. It kills me to do it, but I keep noticing more and more stuff on walls that needs to be wiped down… like black fingerprints on the door from when I do crossword books LOL. I think the only reason I feel antsy to do it though, is bc I don’t feel well enough to actually do it! That or I’d feel like I’m turning into the female version of my dad who’d follow you around with a broom and paper towel just in case any dirt came off you lol. Jk jk!
My goal, since I will be impatient as shit during April to want to garden, was to save the big cleaning until then. So it would keep me busy and keep my hands out of the plants, but depending on how I feel, I might start early.
I am also thinking of chopping off a big chunk of my hair. Canada won’t take my hair for cancer patients bc it’s dyed. The States accepts dyed hair, but not out of the country hair… so this growing has been for a waste! When I wash my hair, it takes me a good twenty minutes or more to brush it after. I have to go through sections in order to keep my brush from being sucked into the rats nest… and since I break brushes on a regular basis, I think it would be nice for a change.
I keep getting these headaches in my eyes that I used to get when I was on Effexor. I only ever got it, when I was late or missed a dose. So the other day I woke up really early, so I didn’t take my new medicine early, and waited… aka forgot. Today I wake up crazy early again and the same thing! Went to take my nightly med.s and realized I totally forgot to take the morning one again!
My stomach is acting like I have been drinking coffee on an empty stomach times a hundred. I can’t wait to get the testing done on the 13th of this month so I can finally get something done about this pain… hopefully!
My landlord came by today and got my tax info. for me. He’s so nice to do mine for free! And my counselor Susan came over too for a bit to catch up. Was a much needed session (now realizing bc I missed my damn med.s No wonder I’m so loopy)
I feel at any moment I’m either going to burst into tears for no reason, or start laughing uncontrollably… I really need to take my med.s tomorrow morning lol.