Insomnia Monday… No Wait Wednesday lol

Okay I’m totally out of it.. and as the title shows on NO sleep.  I apologize in advance to my horrible writing mistakes in this post bc even though there is a spell checker, I’m notorious for putting wrong words spelt right in the wrong spot… now you’re feeling as confused as I am aren’t you? Good… I’m not alone then.

So I had 3 great days.  The 3 best days I’ve had in about 5 years.  I felt good, had some boxes and some Christmas crazy going on in the apartment and I just went nuts packing stuff.  My place feels hollow now and very echoy… sadly my neighbors sex life has seemed to become more echoy as well *shudders*

Susan my Social Service Worker, has a new student Aristha or something and every time I say it, I’m saying a totally different name lol.  She’s older, which I like.  And she and Susan came by today for me to meet her.  Aristha or whatever she is, is coming by tomorrow for her first session with me.  Zeus made it very clear she digusts him and wouldn’t let her go near him without flailing and running off to the tub to scream his usual grumpy rant.  Mind you bc I didn’t sleep… that means he didn’t either.

I got rid of a whole whack load of more stuff on the Free Cycle site.  Google it bitches, bc you can get and give away free stuff in your city.  Such a great idea, bc it saves so many items from going to the dump, and helps many people who don’t have a lot of money.  I’ve gotten some stupid items that turned out to be more of a pain, and I’ve gotten great things too like my bread maker which I love!  Definitely recommend it.  The only thing I’m waiting to give away now is my couch.

I’ve been reading a LOT lately.  I finished up the new CSI digi novel which was amazing!  Also read Bitch in the Kitch and the first of the series… cannot remember its name and I lent it to my step mom to borrow.  It’s about all the interesting facts to do with food with a lot of sarcasm and swearing thrown in… perfection.  Changed my whole ideal on eating and cooking too!  Bitch in the Kitch is actually one of the cookbooks so you’d want to read the first book obviously before buying it.  So funny too.  I’ve also finished one of the free novels I got with my Kobo.. The Preacher’s something or other.  Good but wouldn’t bother to recommend it to anyone.  And am now reading everything Edgar Allen Poe has ever written lol.  I love his short stories especially!  Oh!  And read the play, The Importance of Being Ernest… omg I LOVE it!  I wish it was longer, and that I could see it performed live!

Anyway, besides that I’ve been on the phone like a fat kid clings to the refrigerator and I hate it lol.  I hate the telephone!  So many little things disability needs done.  Proving that I’m moving bc of health conditions, proving I am approved and actually moving to the new apartment… weirdos.  And getting quotes sent over to them for movers.  What do they care so long as I give them a receipt?  Which they’ll need too lol.

Also been on the phone starting my month of doctors appointment bookings!  Had a horrible time getting a hold of anyone of Christmas and the week after.  My family doctor for my knee and fibromyalgia, and my sleep study.. Susan is taking me as well to see what all my tests have said since my numb brain won’t remember everything.  Then I have to run to the dentist on Monday with the student social service worker (the same program I’m in) and sign a consent for my needle poking dentist to get a hold of my Cardiologist.  Since he NEVER phones me back! Grrrrr.    As well the Crohn’s Disease dudes to make my check up appointment… yes it’s been almost a month on these new pills.  They are now helping greatly with the heart burn and acid burn in the stomach, BUT I still have nerve damage pain that doesn’t seem to go away no matter what they give me… except Amytripline which I can’t take thanx to Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome.

So a lot of my facebook, etc. friends have noticed me being absent a lot.  A big part of it was just all the holiday business and being with family a lot.  And now my computer which has always been a piece of crap is getting even worse!  To write an email on facebook, I literally have to wait a good 20 minutes after I’ve finished typing it, for the computer to actually input it onto the screen!  It’s insane!  Surprisingly, knock on wood, this program so far isn’t being effected, but hotmail, facebook and yahoo mail seems to be very hard to manouver around without a lot of swearing and giving up to go sit on the couch and try it again later.

I hope you’re all well and not still pooped out from the holidays!  We all seem to slowly but surely coming back to our normal crappy selves lol.  Xo!

Ash,

Why Couldn’t This Happen NEXT Month!!??

I’m stressed!!!  Of course that means I’m having money issues again, which is the thing that always the thing to stress me out fastest!  I had enough money in my account to pay my student line of credit, and to get my step mom and dad and Christmas gift.  That won’t be happening now.  The bank decided to take out almost $100 out of my account.  I love my dad dearly, but this is the third time he’s been late making his part of the payment.  I am so lucky that he is willing to help me with it, but every time he’s late, money gets taken out of my account… money I don’t have to spare!  So now the one month I get money (for my birthday) to spend on my self (which is the first time in years this has happened bc I usually put it towards xmas gifts) and now I have to use the $50 and put it on my student loan.  Usually ODSP puts January’s money in early, and if they do again this year, I will be able to pay the loan for this month, but still not have enough for their present.  This really sucks.  I had everything budgeted perfectly, and this happens, which I could do nothing to prevent.

I went to the dentist this morning to get my mouth guard and it didn’t fit.  It was the perfect shape of my teeth, but it wasn’t holding into my front teeth, only the back, so it easily slipped out.  My dentist rebooked another appointment for me on Thursday morning, and he’s sending it back for the company who made it, to fix it.  Now I have four appointments this week instead of the 3.  I’m going to crash this weekend for sure, and I can’t bc it’s Nick’s birthday.

I got my new Health Card in the mail this morning too, and my last one was taken way back about 5 yrs ago or more, and it looked like me just up close… which is weird, why do they do that???? lol But this one is hilarious!  I got myself put together nicely for the photo, but I was so sick that day and was in a righteous bitch of a mood… and it looks like it in the photo too!  Classic prison photo.  And of course close up.   If I had a scanner I’d put it on here to give you guys and gals a good laugh lol.

So I finally got my ass in gear to look for a doctor who specializes in EDS, and I come to find out there are none in Ontario!!!  There was a nation wide EDS site to find specialists… but that got closed down bc it’s so rare in Canada!  So basically people with EDS here get NO treatment at all!  That is crazy!

Amanda is taking a whack load of the crap I was going to give away furniture, etc. wise so that’s wikid.  And my mom is taking my bed, so I can keep my ever loving futon mmm I love it!  So I need to get that crap ready to go, along with Amanda’s movies, and some stuff of mine she wanted to borrow.  Plus Wednesday I have Marlene first thing in the morning, then off to the Allergist, who thank God is in Belleville!  Then Thursday morning, back to the dentist at 9am, then Friday morning I have Marlene coming again (PSW) and then off to Kingston to see the G.I. doctors finally about the test results from my scopes.  I also have to call my Cardiologist for the dentist, and call and make an appointment with my family doctor about my sleep study.  Ahhhhhh!  Then Saturday is Nick’s birthday like I mentioned.  He is having a Transformers themed birthday I think.

I also finally got all of my Christmas cards sent out.  Then for now anyway, I will then have the week before Christmas to relax.  At some point this week, I’m to go look at that apartment with Susan too!  How that’s going to be fit in I have NO idea.

Now I’m ready Dark Prophecy, the 2nd digi novel by Anthony Zuiker.  It’s really good so far!

If you were wondering where I was yesterday for my Facebook friends.  I hadn’t slept the night before, and crashed around 8am… and then woke up in the middle of the night yesterday lol.  Sundays are normally my day for doing all my cleaning, etc. and I obviously got none of it done, so I’m trying to today before I finally crash and burn.

Will talk to you all after my appointment with the Allergist.  Take Care!

Ash,