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e99e9170fc8506f8c016720452656127--quotes-love-funny-quotes-motivationI’m always chatting with close friends about my favorite products, people, etc. and have been wanting to do this for a while on here, but never got around to it.  I love when you find those posts about people’s favorites.  I am so much more likely to try a particular product, check out a certain show, if a realistic, every day person like me, recommends it.  So I want to do just that.

I’ve had this blog for YEARS now, and the focus has been primarily on spreading awareness and helping people newly diagnosed with the illnesses I have personally have been diagnosed with.  I LOVE doing that, and if I can help just one person find something that helps them better manage or better understand what they are going through, then I know it has all been worth it.

I also talk about every day shit, and the crafts, projects I am currently working on.  I like sharing that with you guys, bc I figure if you’re reading this, then like me, it maybe something you’d be interested in learning more about to.  Broaden our horizons so to speak.

My blog’s not sponsored in any way.  If It was, I sure as Hell would write a lot more often lol.  And I don’t just add something to the links just bc someone asks me to.  I have to have gotten something from it myself.  I’m sharing it bc I genuinely give a shit and want people to know that.

So the lists of my favorite types of whatevers, will be varied and random.  I’ll post them here, and then as well in the, “My Faves” page for later reference for people to check out.  If you want something of yours shared, let me know!  I can’t promise I will share it.  But when I see it, and I will look, and I think it’s something that’s truly moving, interesting, entertaining, etc. then I would be honored to share your site, page, whatever.

Just wanted to give a quick hello since it’s been forever, and warn you of the mass posting about to being lol.  Wishing you all the best, and will do a catch up post (hopefully) soon, to let you all know how my second Tilt Table Test went, and the fascinating results from it, and what all I have been up to!..

Take Care!




Neuro 2017

17391811_10156315794354815_1331878232_nI met my Neurologist years ago, where he did nerve conductivity tests on me… not pleasant.  And since I had a Cardiologist who was dealing with the heart rate and blood pressure, there wasn’t anything left for my Neuro to do.  So I’ve literally been going to him for years with nothing ever happening lol.

17328207_10156315794239815_1578208932_nToday he decided to give me another Tilt Table Test.  I know this sounds awful, but WAHOO!  I am willing to go through ANYthing if it gives me hope to getting better.  So after 10 years since my first, I will be going through my second test!

17360753_10156315794134815_1824439710_nHe believes that my POTS  should have been grown out of YEARS ago.  I have been diagnosed/disabled by it for about 10 years, with on and off smaller bouts of it throughout my life.  He doesn’t believe it is POTS anymore.  He like a lot of other POTSy’s I know, thinks that it is more of a collection of symptoms from other illnesses building up into POTS like symptoms.  And since I have these other illnesses, they are making it impossible for me to build myself back up, like I normally can.  Hence the horrid shape I am in.

17360555_10156315794314815_1378223814_nBased off my “day in the life” sheets of papers, that explain what I go through on a regular day to day basis, he is positive I have a severe form of Chronic Fatigue Syndrome.  He brought it up at my last appointment, but he is positive that’s what it is now.  Might be some other things too, but that would explain the 24/7 headaches, the never getting enough rest, and not being able to build myself up.  So I am going to look up some diet ideas for it, and see what I can find.  My sis has had it since she was 12, and said the main thing is stress… well I have depression which I am working on and doing very well with for the most part, so there isn’t much more I can do there.

17392103_10156315794059815_1522270929_n.jpgWill let you all know how the Tilt Table Test goes when I get it done, and what the results say.  I am also back to having low B12, and being pre Diabetic again.  So back on my strict diet.  I feel better for it though.

Take Care!!



Welcoming Home…

I had been looking online, and going to shelters and I just couldn’t find a cat that spoke to me.  I knew I could love any cat no matter the situation, but I wanted one that gave me that feeling… that something.  I thought I had found it in a beautiful tuxedo, Sir Charles, but unfortunately, he had feline Leukemia.  Now don’t judge!  There is nothing wrong with having a cat with this.  It just means that you can only have cats with that illness in the home, which isn’t that rare, and you have to keep an eye on their immune system, but he was an older boy to begin with, and I was worried about losing a love so soon.  I just couldn’t handle the idea of loss ANY time soon.  Emotionally I couldn’t hack it.   So I kept looking.  Then I found him.

Lennox & Addington OSPCA posted him.  3 years old, Sarge. Totally not his name now.  He had thank tuxedo look I wanted, and had a unique pattern all to himself… my aunt Kelly helped me find the name he ended up with.  He had what looked like the Rorschach test blots on his face, and since I loved The Watchmen comic… I named him Rorschach… Rory for short.  Which is a good Irish name and after another character I like.

He was found outside, and when I came in to meet him, he was laying making weird talking noises from his litter box just chilling.  I picked him up, and he curled into my shoulder…and he had that something…


Concerned American Woman

Could everyone stop blaming Donald Trump for the hate in America….Hello who was burning the court houses, killing our officers, shooting up clubs, work places and schools…. how about the anti gay protests and the people killing over skin color….. ALL THAT HAS BEEN HAPPENING SINCE I AS LONG AS I CAN REMEMBER THE HATE HAS BEEN HERE. ITS UP TO US TO FINALLY DECIDE TO UNITE AS ONE OR KEEP THE HATE GOING, BUT TO BLAME TRUMP FOR SOMETHING ALREADY HERE AND BEEN HERE IS IGNORANT……. I love everyone, gay straight, white, native american, Jewish, black, baptist, Muslim ect I don’t care who anyone is. I do not judge based on the outside appearance or sexual preference of anyone its what is on the inside that matters to me. Once America can stop dividing and realize what we really are and fight for what we really are American Humans the hate will remain and we will be in the same spot. But stop acting like the hate just started for God sakes its been here and clearly is still here to how about we do something about that instead of once again blaming and choosing sides. When really we are all one, wanting the same things and I am sorry but I am a proud American Woman and anyone against our own country, burning our flags, being disrespectful, running hate from their mouths, causing chaos and being just ignorant well you are the problem period. I was a single mother of 4 working 2 jobs until 6 years ago, I have been raped, jumped for my color, had to make women’s health decisions that were far from easy, been mentally and physically abused most of my 31 years of life, have suffered loss, have family who survived concentration camps and some who were not so lucky, have family on reservations because we pushed them there, had kids out of wed lock, had to live in some bad areas to make ends meet for my kids. I got my GED and I put myself through college to give my kids a better life all while struggling through all the above things because of my decisions and you know what I never blamed the president, I never blamed my parents, I never blamed the lame father of my oldest children, why because I am a human with the right to make my own choices and I am also a human who has to face the consequences for my choices.I knew that for every action and choice I made came a reaction and I knew that I had to own what choices and actions I had made, I had to learn from them, grow from them and then do something about them. I knew I chose my life no one but me. I have been through a lot most people will never know or understand. So before you think I was some rich white privileged American spoiled brat think again. I went through pure hell for what I would say was all but the past 7 years of my life. I worked hard to get to where I am and stand as strong as I do.I am very lucky to have found my husband, my best friend who still works 60 hours a week to pay bills and so we can eat 10 for 10 spaghetti at Kroger. We are a family of 8 now still struggling….. but back to the point who’s fault is it really that America is in this position, it’s our own you cant blame someone for hundreds of years of hate and problems when he has only been here 10 days. Be honest with yourselves and realize it is us who needs to change towards one another not anyone else but us. I am over seeing all the blame games and finger pointing take responsibility for the choices you made, pull up your big kid pants and own it, acknowledge the problems and as American Citizens do something to change that instead of cause more issues. ALSO HE SAID HE WANTED TO DEPORT ALL ILLEGAL IMMIGRANTS WITH CRIMINAL RECORDS….. Sorry guys but there is not a damn thing wrong with that. Everyone is making what he is doing into something it is not and I am over it. I will not fight with you all anymore. I am done with it. We divide ourselves and make ourselves look like idiots all over the world. Do something positive for your cause or SHUTUP




Rough Winter

I the beginning of December I learned there was no more going forward with Zeus.  They told me to enjoy Christmas & New Years with him.  I tried waiting, but couldn’t sit there selfishly watching my baby suffer.  So on the 22nd, I put him down.  It was so rough.  I felt dead inside.  When I put his brother down, I was a bawling mess, but him… it was like part of me was shattered.

Christmas was good despite being without him.  I spent Christmas Eve over night with my dad and Lois.  I got to see all the kids, but Travis & Nick.  I really missed seeing Travis especially, considering I don’t get the see him or his siblings often enough as it is.

Mom’s was where I went Christmas morning.  She framed two beautiful photos of my handsome man for me, which made me cry.  She also got me a necklace that my best friend makes, and I love it to pieces.

Susan gave me, for my birthday, a helium balloon saying Happy Birthday… the damn thing is still in the air attached to a chair in my dining room!  It’s been almost two months!  LOL.

After the New Year, Nicole & Adam went on a hunt with me to find my next kitty.  I found a dainty beauty in this cat, Phaona.  GORGEOUS!  Unfortunately by the end of the first night,  I was choking back the Benadryl & taking my inhaler!  Must have been the longer hair.

I was going to give up, and literally just the day before yesterday found the cat.  I got him at the Napanee OSPCA.  He came as Sarge.  He definitely had a home before, but they found him on the streets.  He is a HUGE cat.  Not fat huge, just a really big boy!

His adoption came with some health insurance, his first set of shots, his neuter, and a microchip.  Plus him, and a bag of food!  That’s insane!  Such a great place.  He was there big boy there, and have been sending them photos of him settling in.  He was settled within two minutes of being here lol.

He is 3 years old.  I have decided to name him Odin.  Odie for short.  He is a sweet heart that means well, but is like a bull in a china shop.

Grams came to stay over night here yesterday, and he just loved her.  He also got to meet Nick and mom shortly.

Watching The Crown.  So far it’s REALLY good!  Love how it’s ver historical.  What a great story so far!

I am going to head out for now.





14971875_10155768924734815_120951597_nWell a lot has changed since I wrote last.  We came into the vets to put Zeus down, and low and behold, my little love had turned himself around!  His blood sugar went back down again.  The vet believes the first antibiotic didn’t work, so we switched, and I’ve been given him two rounds.  He’s on the second round now.

15174586_10155814843344815_1713632207_nHe of course has Diabetes, and has some symptoms, like getting tired out easily, but seems so much better than he did.  More himself now, and sassy.  We shall see what the blood work says when the antibiotic is done, and decide what to do then.  I assume insulin will be the next suggestion.

I was going to foster a bunny through a local tiny animal rescue, but unfortunately with the hay, I won’t be able to bc of my allergies.  BUT I still get to help!  I am going to be fostering a Syrian hamster!  Lol it will be fun.

Did my first big day of training this past Saturday.  Was to go in Sunday too, but I was wasted after the first day, so they are putting me in this Sunday’s class.  I have already passed, but we are going to do practise calls and then live calls and learn the schedule, etc. so I don’t want to miss that either.

This Wed. is infusion day too, so I’m going to be zonked the rest of the week.  I have Anthony coming Thur. to go out for a drive, so that will be nice though.

I have this thing in my knee called, Patellafermeral Disorder (sp?)  which is quite common.  Basically the area that attaches your knee cap to your thigh wears away, and when it gets bad enough, it turns into Bursitis, which basically means inflammation that cannot be brought down easily.  Usually I get it from repetitive standing and bending when I do Spring cleaning, or in the Fall after wearing sandals all Summer, well I’ve been doing everything right, and got it anyway and it went straight to Bursitis, so I’m stuck on Advil, which does NOTHING for the pain.

12247154_10154325707649606_3038622242060818922_nWell last night I decided to set up my Christmas tree, and I went to get up twice from putting decorations on the bottom of the tree, and I cracked my good knee!  So now I can’t squat down to do anything… which is hard when giving your cat medicine twice daily.  So I kind of double over in half for everything, and then for Zeus, I have to just collapse down and recrack my good knee to get back up.  Fun!

This time of year is hard for me.  My uncle Casey passed away just a week before I went into the hospital to be diagnosed with Crohn’s Disease.  Then my uncle Doug passed just after the new year.  It was 14 years ago on Saturday from my diagnosis day.  I went through a lot at that time, like having to drop out of school, etc.  and it took me a long time to get passed everything that happened at that time, bc I was so sick I wasn’t able to deal with any of it at the time.

Will write more soon, but wanted to check in.


Two Years Two Months

12495091_10155042300794815_7558376068035675114_nZeus is being put down on Wednesday.  The last of the original babies.  He has been with me two years, two months shy of half of my life.  Almost 15 years.  I cannot imagine a moment without him.

I go to the grocery store, and I miss him lol.  How am I ever going to make it the rest of my life?  I know he’s a cat, and not a child.  I know he is better off than making him suffer.  I would never make a pet of mine suffer, but I love him, and am I going to miss him.  This is going to be the hardest pet I have ever lost.

From his first night in our home, that cat chose me.  He wasn’t even mine yet, but I was his.  And now that he has been mine for so many years, I don’t want to be without him!

I took him in yesterday for his glucose check up at the vets.  He had started to lose weight on his new diabetic diet!  But sadly his glucose went up so high, it would cost me $1000’s to get him back to normal range, if he didn’t pass from it in the mean time.  He would be there for weeks.  So I have made the decision that I can’t, and will not put him through it.

My heart is breaking.