Family Time!

july2 007I suck for not being on here.  I actually want to be writing more often, but my depression kicks in and I lose all want for writing lol.

We went to my cousin’s 10th birthday party.  We got our pictures taken under fake palm trees.  She lives in Florida, but wanted a birthday with her Canadian family, so they are doing a photo album of all of us, so she knows who we are.  Nick had a great time with the kids, and it was nice to see my cousins and aunts and uncles :)

july2 002My mom, Nick and I, went to Grams for, mom’s birthday.  Grams made her a boiled dinner, and I made her a spice cake with cream cheese icing.  She already knew her gift so that part wasn’t too exciting!

july2 022I’ve been getting Christmas and birthday presents… on a budget.  I have come up with some great ideas so far for everyone!  I’m so excited already! Lol.

I’ve also decided to redo my night stand.  I found it yrs ago on the side of the road.  Just a basic side table, with a drawer, but it’s boring and dated looking, so I’m going to sand it down and paint it to go with my bed.  Not sure what color yet.  Thinking of doing the same with my dresser, but I don’t know if I’ll bother.

I’ve got some really cheap pieces I’ve found online to get used too that I want to redo and sell.  It’ll be a fun past time and I can make a little money while I’m at it!

july2 001I finally bought myself a brand new nesting doll set.  It’s an around the world set.  Basically the biggest piece is a globe of the earth… and you open it up, and there are 8 different little people from different cultures around the world.  Not your typical nesting doll set, but that’s why I like it!  Will have to start getting floating shelves to put them all out on display hehe.

My sis traded her old crappy laptop with a broken screen to me, for a leather jacket I had trying to sell.  I wanted it to use for watching tv and movies on and still be able to go online on this laptop.  The cord is so bloody long, I can stretch it across the room, and set it in one of the little slots for entertainment stuff like DVD players, etc.  and keep it all neat and tidy… even though right now it’s all over the floor lol.

july2 017Still trying to figure out what’s going on with my air conditioner.  I know … or I think I know it’s bc the water line is probably dirty and needs a good cleaning, but I can’t get at it, to do it, so Lilliane’s going to help me next week, try and figure it out.  I really don’t want to have to be wasting money to get a new one, when it’s probably something simple, but my unit is discontinued, so it’s so hard to find a manual and figure out how to take the inside apart.

I think also, I am done trying to read Watership Down.  So many people love it, and I find it boring so far, and in order for it to be exciting, cute little bunnies will be hurt, and I won’t want to read about that either lol.  Think I’ll test out one of the millions of books I have on my Kobo to check out.

july2 018Also… I have had a couple readings done on me, and wanted to share on here, what the readers have said about me.  Psychics I guess?  I get a 1/2 hour reading next week, while I will hopefully remember most of to share, but this is the two I got done by two separate women.

Ash, Okay I’m not getting family in for you hun. I am getting healers from spirit, and they are healing you all the time. They feel that you may need more from a doctor as they can’t do it all.  They are saying it will get better in time ty

the second

Ash, The dreamer, the take it as it comes kind of person. Let by gone’s be by gone’s and go from there giving ppl another chance, or the benefit of the doubt. Trust them one more time. Ppl have not been very good to you have they?. You are a lonely person even when there are ppl around. You carry much sadness with you from things that have happen to you through life but your guides are stepping forward to let you know that you are not alone. They are with you and will get you through all of it. So, stay positive hun!

Talk soon!

Ash,

PS  Zeus got a new catnip toy from the vets today, and my Lilly’s finally bloomed from Nicole.  They got ate by squirrels last year, and this year they look gorgeous!  I also had a dinner and a movie date with Nick this week.  Reese was so adorable cuddling up to him!

Keeping Up the Paces

july13 002I keep telling myself that it’s just the weather.  I feel like I’m having a bad time health wise.  Yes, this weather for me is absolutely awful.  I have a great air conditioner I got last Summer, and I don’t know how I’d even be moving if not for having it, but I feel like my health is taking a step back.

july13 003I’m exhausted… all …the…time.  All I want to do is sleep.  The CPAP machine helps with this, or at least it did… and it doesn’t help that Zeus has been waking me up every time I try to sleep.  I normally would just ignore it, but he’s back into his knocking stuff off tables if I don’t pay attention to him, and he keeps going for things like my medicine, etc. that can and has burst open when he swats it.  I get super pissed too, and can’t sleep.  I get up… and he goes back to sleep!  WTF???  He’ll even have food in his bowl!

july13 004I notice my weakness is worse.  It kills me to do the girl’s big cage, like it used to kill me to do the fish tank.  I will never get rid of my babies, but it’s so damn hard to do, and I want to do well by them.  I have to choose between doing my dishes… or having a shower… cleaning their cages… and being able to cook myself dinner.  People make so many assumptions about people on disability.  If they only truly realized what we go through in a day.  How I personally would LOVE to feel healthy and be able to work and come home and make myself dinner, clean, etc.  It’s my dream… which feels like a crap shoot these days.

july13 005My depression has been surprisingly good considering.  Not bad, not great by any means either.  I guess I sort of feel content… which sometimes is stretching it.

Mom and I went to Giant Tiger today.  I had to have a 2 hour nap after.  Then I was too sick to make myself a proper meal.

On a good note.  This weekend, we are going out to my aunt and uncle’s for my cousin’s daughter, Dakota’s 10th birthday.  They live in the States, but she wanted her party in Canada, so we got invited out.  It will be so nice to see them all :)  What do you get a 10 yr old you do not know at all?  iTunes card lol.  Apparently she loves online games like Nick does, so I figure that will help get her some more.  I was looking for a pair of shorts for myself, but I could only find two I liked, and they had nothing in the line of sizes.  Must be bc of the big sale or something.  I ended up getting a $6 tank top!

july13 006Mom’s birthday is this Thursday.  I was going to cook dinner and make a cake for her, but my Gram’s is doing the dinner I guess, so I asked her to let me make the cake.  I got to get a hold of Holly to see if she can take me out to get the stuff for it.  I’ve had her gift all wrapped since I bought Gram’s gift, so that’s all done and ready.

I also got Nick’s birthday present in the mail.  All the paper crap Amazon uses in their boxes is so wasteful, but Zeus was having a riot.  I came in bc I heard him screaming, and he was laying on his side in among all the paper playing away lol.

july13 007The beginning of August, I go to the Neuro for my check up.  I LOVE him.  He has such a great way with his patients.  I know there isn’t a whole lot known to do for a person with POTS, but how can they just leave us to suffer like this?  I’m going to exhaust myself going there, for a few days after even, and all he is going to say, is to keep doing what I’m doing.  So frustrating.  I wish I could go to the big POTS clinic in the States.  At least they are doing studies and constantly trying to better the patient’s lives, instead of just leaving them the way they are after the heart rate jumps in normal range.

Okay going to go rest.

Ash,

July Busies

july 007I am feeling so much more accomplished this month.  Still no where near where other people are, but I am getting lots done for me!

Adam and Nicole brought me this wikid apartment sized freezer.  I got my spare room light switched.. which is more difficult than people realize when being potsy, bc all the blood drains to your feet making you crazy dizzy… and I’m doing this, while standing on a stool.  So I got it done, and got the room moved around, and was able to easily push the freezer into the room to set it up.  So now I just have to get cooking!

july 003I got my air conditioner set up too, and in perfect timing!  It’s been so damn hot out!  I love having it!

I was also able to order Nick’s birthday present… yes I’m starting early on the gifts again lol.  The joys of being on a budget!  And I’m SO excited to get it in the mail!  He’s going to LOVE it!  Speaking of gifts, Grams loved her gift.  Nick, Liam, mom and I went to her place for cake and pictures.  Zeus had over taken her gift (a table top ironing board) and had been sleeping on it up until when I had to take it to her lol.  Mom and I made sure to get pictures of it for her to see.

july 004I saw my counselor Susan yesterday too.  She’s trying to get a little stay kitten caught outside her condo area, to get helped, but it’s feral so it’s been a task.  So nice to finally see her!  Wish I could more often…

Nicole and Adam and I went costume/dress shopping.  Nicole’s art show “Fantasy in the Forest” is coming up, and she wanted to dress up for it, so they came up here to find a cool outfit for her.  It was fun, and probably the only time I’ll see her dress shopping, unless she chooses to get married, so I had to go!  hehe.

july 017My dearest Lily (Nicole and Adam’s pup) came up the day they brought the freezer.  She was especially kissy that day, and when we got her on the couch right before they left to get photos, Lily decided to give me a smooch.  It made me laugh, which got her hyper, and she jumped in for another kiss, which I turned my head in time to avoid, and she somehow got caught in my earrings… and riiiiip!

I was freaking out about Lily swallowing one of my earrings that went flying (I wear a bunch in my bottom holes) and Nicole was worried about me, but I didn’t want her to worry when it didn’t even hurt that badly.  Once they left I checked on it, and realized it had torn all the way out… I was shocked bc it wasn`t really painful!  So mom came down and took me to the hospital and I got stitches for the first time ever!  I got 6, and got all bandaged up around my head so I looked like an 80`s wrestler lol.  It was pretty funny, but I knew Nicole felt terrible, which YOU DON`T NEED TO BE SILLY!  Since I know she`s reading this lol.  I go in today to get them taken out at my family doctors.

july 006I was able to get another 2 sets of Matryoshka dolls.  One set is a circular set.

My goal this weekend, is to get the girl`s cleaned up (their cage), make my home made cleaners,get Zeus`nails done (who is staring at me right now bc I`m typing and not petting him lol)  and hopefully get a good vacuuming in too.

Mom`s birthday is on the 16th.  I got her one of those foot filer things that looks like and electric razor… an as seen on tv product she wanted, and a new heating pad.  I can post it, bc she picked it out, so she already knows I got it lol.

Amanda`s is next month, and thanks to Nicole, I was able to find the one thing that might stop me from getting it done.  So I`m pumped that I`ll most likely be able to do it now!

Okay going to scoot.

Ash,

PS  No doctor appointments after today, until I got to the Neuro at the beginning of August.  Wooo!

Happy Canada Day!

june15 009I haven’t written in so long, because I just haven’t had the heart to post anything.  I get feeling down, and feel like I’ve shared my feelings enough and just can’t do it for the next while.  So I am back and posting again!  Listening to my guinea pigs tell me it’s time for fresh veggies… so I had better get on this, so I can get onto that!

I am back to knitting again!  Starting a multi colored blanket for my bedroom, and finishing off the wolf scarf I started waaay too long ago for my friend Nicole.  Excited about getting into it!

juneyard 005I am finally done reading Gone Girl.  Thank God!  It took forever, and the one time I will say this is now… just go watch the damn movie lol.  I am now reading Watership Down.  Interesting so far…

My peanut butter squares I made.  On suggestion, I think they need choc. chips added.

My peanut butter squares I made. On suggestion, I think they need choc. chips added.

I got to have a girl’s day with my friend Lana and we watched half of the last season of the Walking Dead.  REALLY good so far!  So now we gotta meet up soon again and watch the rest.  Got to meet the other pup of the house, and we even picked up a wonderful German Shepard on the way who was wandering lost.  Got her home fairly soon though!

10641302_10154224738729815_3490434327642119689_nI got my scope done and omg the prep made me so sick this time!  The test turned out fine.  Better than he figured, so I don’t have to go back to the GI until December I think.  Humira is working good in me as well :)  Always good to know!

Mom and Gram’s birthdays are coming up this month too.  I can order mom’s online, but I’m hoping I get to get out with Holly this Friday and pick up grandma’s and some gift bags.

Majority, but not all of my medication for a week.  The joys of being chronically ill.

Majority, but not all of my medication for a week. The joys of being chronically ill.

I was also able to meet up with dad before Father’s Day for lunch and then again on Father’s Day to come over for a coffee.

I’m getting screamed at, so I’m going to jet.  Nothing exciting happening here tomorrow.  Going to chill at home for a change.

Ash,

Busy Busy

nicoleadam 047I’ve been keeping myself crazy busy, and now I feel like I am due for a crash day.  I don’t really get one until Tuesday though.  This week my PSW came today instead, and I got all the animals cleaned up (their cages/litter), vacuumed, got the garbages and recycling ready for tomorrow morning, and went out with my Peer Worker to get some groceries earlier.

nicoleadam 034I feel like by the time I start to get close to getting everything done… everything else comes back around to being needed done again.  Make sense?  I’m so tired!

I got to go visit my friend last week and see and play with all the foster kittens, and her pets.  Even had a quick nap with the dog too!  I’m heading out to see her tomorrow again when my mom and grams goes out there, and my dad is going to meet me there, so I can give him his Father’s Day gift.  Will show in my next post what I got him.

nicoleadam 022On Saturday, I am meeting a 6 year old pug, Ozzy.  I am actually very excited to meet this one.  He has been in perfect health, due to proper breeding, and the owner can no longer give him the attention and exercise he needs, so she is adopting him out depending on if she finds the perfect home for him.  I hope he and Zeus get along well.

nicoleadam 018Then Sunday, I have to take the prep for my scope on Monday morning.  I’m not nervous about the scope this time bc I get put out, but I detest the thoughts of not eating for an entire day, but JELLO, and drinking that God awful prep!  It seriously never gets easier lol.

june15 002The dietitian appointment went well!  She is really happy with my progress.

I know I owe a lot of approvals and replies on here, as well as an important email reply!  I am taking a break from all that until this weekend is over.  Hoping to write soon!

june15 004I did hear back from my family doctor about my blood work, and apparently my calcium is low!  I have never been the type to have a lot of calcium in my diet, and I’ve never had a problem.  What’s strange though, is I have added more lately bc of my new diet, so I wasn’t expecting that.  Oh well!!!

june15 019I was also able to get out to Strut for Strays!  We only stayed for about an hour, but it was a great day for it, and fun to watch the activities and see all the pups!  We brought Niles with us!!!  (My mom’s little dog)

Talk soon!

Ash,

Prep Week

ipods 004This week is going to be a good one.  I know everyone is hating this rainy, cold mess we’re having, but I love it!  The cold kills my Fibromyalgia, but helps my POTS so much!!!  I go from having no energy, to actually being able to get things done!

This week, I have Lilliane and the housing department coming on Wednesday, then Thursday morning, I go and get blood work done for my G I and my family doctor, and then I am possibly going out to see my friend Nicole for the day!  So excited!  She works with a feral kitten rescue, and has some at her place right now, so I need to come out and see them!!!

Friday morning, I have the dietitian, which I was a little worried with having no food to eat the last week before I got paid, but I am now down from 12 lbs!!!  That is awesome!  Her scale says I was a lot less to begin with, but I am going by my scale so I can figure more accurately how much I have lost.

Mom, grams, Nick and I went to the farmers market this past weekend.  Mind you, a lot of fruits and veggies weren’t out yet, and it was so hot I felt disgusting being out in public, but it was worth going!  I just love the atmosphere there!  Will have to go again soon.

Since my dad literally has anything he wants… it does NOT make it easy to buy for the man!  Usually for Father’s Day, I get him a couple of perennials since him and my step mom Lois, are forever working on a new garden bed, but I wanted to switch it up a bit this year.  So I am going to get him one plant that’s really nice and bigger than usual, but this year, I want to do something else for him.  Not going to post on here about it until after the fact, but it’ll be a fun, usable gift for him.

My nausea has been TERRIBLE lately.  I go through waves of it.  One of the worst symptoms I swear.  I know I haven’t caught anything, bc eating makes me feel better, not worse, but it makes it so hard to do things that take longer to do, like grocery shopping.  I tried on Saturday, after the farmers market, but just couldn’t do it, so I had mom’s help yesterday.  I would go around getting the particular brands I wanted, and would get mom to get the more generic stuff for me, so it made it go a little quicker.  I don’t like anyone else getting them for me for two reasons.  1.  No on knows what brands, what you’re willing to spend, etc. better than yourself, so it actually gets done properly when you just do it yourself.  And 2.  If I stop getting my own groceries, it will get to the point where I won’t be well enough to, and I will NOT let that happen.  May take me a few days longer, but either way I am the one doing it!

Okay… woke up at 5:30am for some god awful reason, so going to nap until my alarm goes off at 9 and then get some stuff done!

Talk soon!

Ash,

Crohn’s Rearing

may182015 020Well I had my G I appointment yesterday.  Good news, is he doesn’t believe the foot pain is from my Humira!  We’ll keep an eye on it with blood work, but apparently low B12 will do the same thing, and cause really bad nerve pain, etc.  So he’s keeping an eye on that too since he hasn’t been, and where it is absorbed is where my scar tissue is, so I will double what I am taking now in vitamins and see what happens.

Bad news is… he wants to do a scope. I FREAKIN HATE SCOPES!  They never get easier, and I will have to totally abolish my diet plan bc I cannot eat half the stuff I’m supposed to, for a week or two before the scope.  I have to get it done on June 15th.  At least with him, I get put to sleep, but the prep and not eating SUCKS!  So until then, expect me to act like a big baby… just a warning lol.

may182015 017My CPAP machine isn’t working properly, so I was going to call Medigas, who I got it through about it, but decided to check the paper work they gave me, and am giving it a good thorough cleaning and changing of all of the filters, etc. and see if that works first.

I have a bunch of cleaning I want to do animal wise, but I am hoping to at least get the girl’s cages cleaned, and get Roxy’s nails trimmed.

I know I have comments, etc. to get back to on here, but I am exhaustapooted so I am going to leave it for the day if you guys don’t mind.  I just don’t have it in me.

may182015 003I did get earlier in the week, my garden beds finally weeded.  I had old plants from last year that needed to be cut back, and so much grass, etc. to rip out, but it’s been colder lately, which I love, so I will hopefully be well enough to do the transplanting of my few plants under the stairs, over to the other garden beds this weekend.  My landlord was talking of paving it over, and I do not want them wrecked with the amount of money they’re worth.  He did finally get the grass mowed today, so I’ll be a little less scared of ticks.  (they’re really bad this year)

Okay, going to head out and have a nap.  I’m sure it’s not having the CPAP machine going for a few days that’s exhausting me, but I just can’t stay awake!

Talk soon!

Ash,