End of Sept

7fd29eeacea03b1bd7b3ab59264cd115Got to go see Nicole last Friday!  It was nice and relaxing, and I got to cuddle with all the animals… even got to pet Pabu, their little cat who is scared of everyone, due to being originally a stray.  Treats helped!  hehe.  He’s such a handsome little man.

I was able to finally get a washing machine!  FINALLY!  I don’t technically have it yet.  We went to get it today, and no one could get it unhooked from the hoses lol.  So they have it unhooked now, and I am going tomorrow to get it!

Dad and Lois came for a short visit too on Sunday.  It was nice to see them.  I miss my dad so much.  I wish I could see him more!  Thanksgiving is coming soon enough though I suppose.

Zeus is not puking any more, but has had the odd poo still on the floor.  I’m crazy worried about him, so when I get his food, I’m going to ask them if they think I should bring in a sample the next time, or maybe bring him in for blood work.

Still have not had the chance to make my candles yet.  I really want to, but when I’m home I’m either busy catching up on stuff I wasn’t able to do when I’ve been sick, or I’ve been too sick to stand at the oven to do it, or I’m so exhausted I’m just sleeping.  I will get to it soon though and post photos!

Tuesday I went in, and got my heart ultrasound done.  I guess the Neuro wanted one done, then a stress test, and then another ultrasound, but the hospital there doesn’t do that, so I have to find out if the Neuro still wants me to get it done, then get a referral to another office in town that does do it here.

Going to head out.  Will write more, when I know how the tests went, and what their next plan is.  Honestly, I’d like to go right for the tilt table test then.

Talk soon.


PS October is Dysautonomia Awareness Month!

My Little Man…

12038050_10154496942589815_2987475600508954138_nMy little man Zeus hasn’t been feeling well.  Rationally I know it could be nothing, but twice now in the last week he has thrown up 3 times, and gone poo on the floor after trying to in the litter box.  Almost like he’s back up or something, even though he’s going daily as per usual.  Yes.. I know my cats pooping schedule lol.

There was food in his throw up, which makes me think he’s scarfing his food too fast, and he seems absolutely fine after he does go through this, but he is 13… and unfortunately he can’t live forever, so it has been something that’s been nagging at my heart when this has happened.

Big Brother finally finished last night.  For one of the few times I didn’t cry lol.  Which is funny, bc it’s who I wanted to win with the final two.

Found out I am anemic.  Which is funny to me bc any time I have been, it’s been bc of B12 bc of my Crohn’s medicine.  This time, my B12 was high… which doesn’t make sense bc I thought that couldn’t happen, and it’s my Iron that’s low!  My Neurologist would scoff in an I told you so tone if he knew lol.  He’s always adamant I have low Iron, and now finally I do.  He was the first person I thought of when I saw the blood work results lol.

Going to see my best friend Nicole tomorrow!  I’m so excited!  It’s been too long, and even longer since I have been able to go out there to see her.  Packing a bag with stuff for her as we always do when we know we’re going to see each other.

It’s only 6am and I’ve been awake since about 4:30 am… I slept a lot yesterday.  I’m over this crappy cold I had thankfully.  I pumped myself with Eckanasia   … I know I am spelling it wrong, but every time I try to spell it, it comes out as euthanasia lol.  Either way, it did the trick and I didn’t get overly sick like I normally would, and only had one day of a man cold lol.

Will talk soon!



12030767_10154475478354815_2073559438_nSo far things have seemed pretty boring here.  I got Zeus’ cat stairs carpeted, and separated all of my spider plants and their babies into smaller pots.  I’m hoping as they grow, I will start selling them.

I haven’t gotten started on painting any of the furniture bc money is tight, and still working on Christmas gifts.  I will have my oldest nephew, my counselor and my psw left to get for and everyone else will be done.  I have my oldest niece and great nephews in the works right now.

11855391_10154475478374815_834313225_nGot to see my college roomie Jess last weekend which was awesome!  I wasn’t feeling that great, but could at least make us supper!  It was yummy and so nice to see her :)  It was our 10 yr anniversary since we moved in together!  Can’t believe it was that long ago… blah.

If you are in Canada, make sure to go to Petsmart’s Adoption Weekend.  Even if you can’t adopt, you can buy a toy for one of the little babies there to have!

12030965_10154475478349815_1641621563_nI got a new nesting doll set.  It was hand painted by a woman from Russia, with her signature.  They are beautiful :)

I’ve also been cooking a lot more and trying some baking out.  Got a yummy peanut butter cookie recipe my best friend tried first and yuuuuum.  So good and easy!  1/2 cup sugar, 1 cup peanut butter, and an egg.  That’s it!

12033347_10154475478364815_1021032748_nWent to the dentist and no cavities!  I was given a Sulcabrush to use now after brushing and flossing.  Actually feels kind of nice, but I know me, and I will probably get lazy about it lol.

Watching Big Brother so I’m gonna jet.



wedding 052Still no word from the hospital about getting the tests done.  Hopefully I hear from them soon!  Susan came by this morning, which was so nice to catch up with her!

I’ve been SO exhausted lately!  I am getting stuff done, but I am constantly having to take naps.  It’s very strange.  When my birthday rolls around, I am sending in the chip from my CPAP machine to get it checked and make sure it’s on the right level, etc.

coach1 001The wedding was SO nice!  Loved getting to see the old apartment mom and I lived in, when my parents first split.  Loved the simple, but beautiful things they did for the wedding, and yummy food.  Also got to see lots of people from Camden East (where I grew up) like Annabelle who lived across the street from us.  It was just the perfect day :)

Nicole and Adam came over for a short visit today.  I got to stand… yes stand and go back and forth training with Nicole with Lily.  It was fun, even though my hand gestures were totally backwards LOL.  She did so good!

wedding 070I was hanging out with my one neighbor who recently got a tarantula (gags) and a bearded dragon (in love)  I couldn’t see the gross one since it was buried (thank god lol) but got to pick up the bearded dragon.  I am in love with them!  I have been researching them more, and thinking later on once the girls are gone, I might consider getting one!  I fell in love with this one, the second I held it!  So sweet!  And I love inquisitive pets!

wedding 072Dad already made the stairs for me for Zeus!  They look amazing!  He did a great job on them.  Dennis, my landlord gave me some spare carpeting he had at home, and one of his exacto knives to use.  Also showed me the best way to lay the carpeting to staple it down.  Mom is bringing me her staple gun tomorrow for me to get it all done.  I’m just so happy with it :)  And Zeus has been using it too, which makes this all worth it.  He climbs up it… and then jumps from the top step off it lol.

Hoping to get some paint to start redoing some of these pieces of furniture.  I cannot wait to get going with them!  I am hoping to make a new page on here showing the before, the process and the after with each project.  It’ll be fun :)

Hope you are all doing well!



aug8 004Been  doing a LOT better lately!  My blood pooling in my feet is terrible, but I’m fighting it really well!  Which of course has put me in a better mood too.

Aunt Kelly is down from TO and I’m SO happy!  Tomorrow we are going to a wedding in the family.  I am wearing a new top and skirt I got at Old Navy.  I hope it looks okay!

kobo vox 001My dad and step mom; Lois, was over today for a visit :)  I`miss my dad so much!  I talk to him like 2-3 times a week on the phone, but it`s not the same!  He found a cool cupboard on the side of the road earlier this week while we were chatting, and brought it up today.  It`s beautiful!!!  I need to get paint bad!  I have so many cool projects I want to get started on :)

kobo vox 002We’ve had problems in the past with the roof above my front entrance room (which is below my upstairs neighbor’s patio deck area)  leaking whenever it rained or snow melted.  Well it finally hit the big time and drenched the carpet the landlord had laid down.  The people who rented here before me, would lock their dogs in that room, and it was smelly when I first moved here, even after they repainted and scrubbed it, but hasn’t smelt in the last couple of years.  Since this rain, it’s reeked worse than ever before, so my landlord came over and ripped the carpeting out, took the cabinet out he had put up for me, bc water had been pouring behind there, and has been working on it every few hours for the last couple of days.  It’s starting to look all cleaned up now though.

Cabinet from dad
Cabinet from dad

My college roomie Jess, is coming down next weekend for a visit!  I cannot wait to see her!  We moved in together ten yrs ago this month… omg that makes it seem so long ago, when it feels like only yesterday.  It will be so good to just chat and catch up.  I’ve missed her!

I got all the animals brushed, and their nails trimmed.  Speaking of pets… I found these cool, cheap, As Seen On Tv doggy stairs, to help them get onto the bed, into the car, etc.  and I wanted to get them, for Zeus at bed time.  Since switching from a futon to a bed with a box spring and mattress, he’s had a little more difficult of a time getting into bed.  So these stairs were on for really cheap!  Problem with the great price, is they sell out within a couple hours of Petsmart being open!  So I asked dad, and he is going to make him a small set of sturdy stairs to get into bed :)  I am so glad he is doing this for me.  Zeus is my love, and a HUGE part of my life, and this is the least I can do for my old boy!

Still haven’t heard about going in for my tests yet, but hopefully soon!

Take Care.


PS  I FINALLY got my damn portable air conditioner working again!


homemade cleaners
homemade cleaners

I am having a rough time lately.  It’s setting my depression off.  Not all the time, just when my POTS gets really active, or I’m doing something really hard, like laundry, etc.  I seriously want to drop and cry my eyes out.

I had my Neurologist appointment.  He truly thinks my POTS is in remission, and is now worried something is wrong with my heart.  It’s been over worked for more than 10 yrs now, and bc I am not fainting, but feeling like I am just going to collapse doing stuff, he thinks it’s bc my body is running too fast.

working on my friend's fox scarf.  almost done!
working on my friend’s fox scarf. almost done!

So he is going to set me up for a stress test/ poor man’s tilt test.  If everything with my heart is good, which I am sure it is, then I go in for my second Tilt Table Test.  (See page on here to see what that is).  I am happy that he is doing something at least, but I do believe it’s POTS bc standing to change the loads of laundry, caused my feet to go purplish blue.  All the classic symptoms too when standing… out of breath like I’ve ran a marathon, shaking, sweating, nausea, dizziness.  I do dread the idea of the tilt test bc it’s basically putting a POTSy is the worst situation to see what they do.  Worth it, but still frustrating to have to do.  What else is there though?

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a side table I am redoing, and making the bottom into a bed for Zeus

Going to my friend Lana’s place to watch the rest of The Walking Dead season, and got to go out with my friends Nicole, Adam and their pup I adore, Lily.  It seriously killed me, and we basically did nothing.  Thank God for friends like them, who get that I can’t go out for very long, or really do much without needing a rest.  I feel like I’m pushing myself too hard just to not even keep up with life, and when friends expect me to be around and social, even just to sit around, literally, it wipes me right out.

I fell asleep last night around 7, shortly after I got home from the dr.s.  Woke up around 4:30am, back asleep by 6am until around 10 or so, then back asleep until almost 1pm.  I’m just so damn tired :(

new kitty treats for Zeus.  you know they're good when he likes them!
new kitty treats for Zeus. you know they’re good when he likes them!

Reading a book about Russell Williams.  Really good so far.  Watching Ghost Adventures, trying to stay awake a bit longer.  I need to stop watching this show bc they are constantly in my dreams now lol.

Will make a separate page for the furniture I am working on redoing.

Take Care.


Family Time!

july2 007I suck for not being on here.  I actually want to be writing more often, but my depression kicks in and I lose all want for writing lol.

We went to my cousin’s 10th birthday party.  We got our pictures taken under fake palm trees.  She lives in Florida, but wanted a birthday with her Canadian family, so they are doing a photo album of all of us, so she knows who we are.  Nick had a great time with the kids, and it was nice to see my cousins and aunts and uncles :)

july2 002My mom, Nick and I, went to Grams for, mom’s birthday.  Grams made her a boiled dinner, and I made her a spice cake with cream cheese icing.  She already knew her gift so that part wasn’t too exciting!

july2 022I’ve been getting Christmas and birthday presents… on a budget.  I have come up with some great ideas so far for everyone!  I’m so excited already! Lol.

I’ve also decided to redo my night stand.  I found it yrs ago on the side of the road.  Just a basic side table, with a drawer, but it’s boring and dated looking, so I’m going to sand it down and paint it to go with my bed.  Not sure what color yet.  Thinking of doing the same with my dresser, but I don’t know if I’ll bother.

I’ve got some really cheap pieces I’ve found online to get used too that I want to redo and sell.  It’ll be a fun past time and I can make a little money while I’m at it!

july2 001I finally bought myself a brand new nesting doll set.  It’s an around the world set.  Basically the biggest piece is a globe of the earth… and you open it up, and there are 8 different little people from different cultures around the world.  Not your typical nesting doll set, but that’s why I like it!  Will have to start getting floating shelves to put them all out on display hehe.

My sis traded her old crappy laptop with a broken screen to me, for a leather jacket I had trying to sell.  I wanted it to use for watching tv and movies on and still be able to go online on this laptop.  The cord is so bloody long, I can stretch it across the room, and set it in one of the little slots for entertainment stuff like DVD players, etc.  and keep it all neat and tidy… even though right now it’s all over the floor lol.

july2 017Still trying to figure out what’s going on with my air conditioner.  I know … or I think I know it’s bc the water line is probably dirty and needs a good cleaning, but I can’t get at it, to do it, so Lilliane’s going to help me next week, try and figure it out.  I really don’t want to have to be wasting money to get a new one, when it’s probably something simple, but my unit is discontinued, so it’s so hard to find a manual and figure out how to take the inside apart.

I think also, I am done trying to read Watership Down.  So many people love it, and I find it boring so far, and in order for it to be exciting, cute little bunnies will be hurt, and I won’t want to read about that either lol.  Think I’ll test out one of the millions of books I have on my Kobo to check out.

july2 018Also… I have had a couple readings done on me, and wanted to share on here, what the readers have said about me.  Psychics I guess?  I get a 1/2 hour reading next week, while I will hopefully remember most of to share, but this is the two I got done by two separate women.

Ash, Okay I’m not getting family in for you hun. I am getting healers from spirit, and they are healing you all the time. They feel that you may need more from a doctor as they can’t do it all.  They are saying it will get better in time ty

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Ash, The dreamer, the take it as it comes kind of person. Let by gone’s be by gone’s and go from there giving ppl another chance, or the benefit of the doubt. Trust them one more time. Ppl have not been very good to you have they?. You are a lonely person even when there are ppl around. You carry much sadness with you from things that have happen to you through life but your guides are stepping forward to let you know that you are not alone. They are with you and will get you through all of it. So, stay positive hun!

Talk soon!


PS  Zeus got a new catnip toy from the vets today, and my Lilly’s finally bloomed from Nicole.  They got ate by squirrels last year, and this year they look gorgeous!  I also had a dinner and a movie date with Nick this week.  Reese was so adorable cuddling up to him!