Peer Support Glee

jacefamtreeI got to meet Holly on Tuesday.  She is going to be taking me out every Friday morning for any errands I need done.  Thankfully she is starting with me tomorrow bc I need groceries!   I’m hoping to only do some grocery shopping, and split it up to every couple weeks so it doesn’t completely drain me out for the day.

I was thinking of doing fostering with a small dog rescue group.  The dog’s come from the states, usually California.  Any food, vet bills, etc. is all paid for.  Then if they did well, and I wanted, I could adopt the dog, but I decided against it.  It seems like such a great group of people to work with, and even had one lady come to my home to make sure my home would be a safe place, but there were some down falls for me.  To adopt, it’s $400… not an easy amount of money to come up with when on disability, especially when I could adopt a dog at the OSPCA for around $2-250.  You also don’t know until the day of which dog you are getting.  Obviously they look into setting you up with a dog that meets your needs and wants and their’s as well, but I like to spend time with an animal before all of a sudden they are mine.. especially if I am looking to adopt in the end.  Also, I’ve wanted a Pug for so long, that would be throwing that hope out the window.  Plus I was worried with my depression, and it happening all so quickly, that I was just making a big decision in a really short amount of time, which could be my depression doing that.

aria 008So I had decided to wait it out for a pug.  I had to know they were good with cats bc Zeus is my first love, and my main priority at this point.  I don’t want to get a dog and have Zeus be stressed or any less happy than he is now.  He’s been the only pet for a long time.  I also want the dog to be house trained.  My dear landlord just redid the whole apartment bc of the people who lived here before and ruined the place with all the pets they had in here.  Plus I don’t want to have to be training a dog in that respect!

flow 005I have applied to a bunch of rescues that work with flat faced dogs, or pugs only, contacted animal shelters all over to see if they would contact me when one came in, and went online looking for people trying to rehome their adult pugs.  I am being very careful that way, since a friend got a great dog named Angel, who ended up with really expensive vet bills bc she was sick, and they never told her before she took her in.

I have found a great 2 year old, male, black pug who I am hoping to meet this weekend at some point.  Hopefully Sunday, bc I have plans with Nicole on Saturday.  And see if he and I hit it off.  The woman is willing to drive to Trenton to meet me with him.  I am just waiting to hear back from her.  So who knows?  Maybe next time I write the little guy, or another will already be here!

aria 021There’s this girl I’ve been wanting to rant about…  I don’t know her, she’s just a girl around my age in the area, who since last Summer, catches the bus with her little baby across from my house.  I saw her once last year on a cool day with the baby in just a diaper, and the sky was so dark it was obvious it was going to rain.  A woman stopped in her car, and gave a blanket to her for the baby, and an umbrella.  I am a huge advocate for kids and animals, so this really bothered me to see, but lately every time the mom sees me, she gives me this look like I make her want to puke!  LOL.  Now I don’t care what people think of me, let alone people I don’t know, but now she is working at the Tim Horton’s by my mom’s and she was in the drive through window and gave me that look again!  The funny part is, I don’t know if this is me she does this to, or if it’s just her face!  So any time I see her out and about with the baby, and or with her hubby, I always try to watch her to see if she has the same face all the time or what…  either way, at least I’m not a bad mom!

Speaking of mom’s, my mom’s Christmas present is in!!!  I’m SO excited about it, and see how it looks 🙂  I also ordered some photos from Walmart to do my mini family tree magnet thing (will post a photo when done, so you all can see what I mean) so I need to get up there to grab those too.  Just a fun, silly little project to do 🙂

Will write next week after I get to see Nicole, etc. and the Pug 🙂



Shimmy Shimmy Shake Shake

kirkdebwed 048I don’t know what is going on with me, but my whole body is in potsy tremor mode.  I feel like I haven’t ate in days, when I literally just ate a huge plate of spaghetti and two pieces of cake.  I just keep shaking like mad.

This past weekend was my oldest brother Kirk’s wedding 🙂  They had the wedding outside at a friends place, and the reception at a hall in town.  My sister wasn’t able to go from being sick, and my aunt Joan couldn’t either from being sick too.  I had a cute purple skirt that I was going to wear, but it ended up being so damn uncomfortable and tight, that I changed at the last minute, to a sun dress, with my dress shirt on over top lol.  I couldn’t even wear my matching black sandals bc they have a heel and my knee is wrecked, so I was wearing brown shoes with a black and white outfit LOL.

kirkdebwed 009The wedding’s colors were all purple, which of course I love.  I got a ton of photos and videos, and got to see my oldest niece Jess, her son Jase, and my oldest nephew Travis.  My sweeties 🙂

I am definitely paying for it since.  We weren’t there late, but we gave my uncle a ride home, and came in to see my aunt Joan, then had to drive all the way back to Belleville.  I can barely stay awake since!

kirkdebwed 018Tomorrow, my counsellor is coming in the morning with the peer support woman who will help me get around town to get my groceries, and other errands I need to do.  Then Wed. morning, I have Pat, the Personal Support Worker, who comes when Lilian is off work.  I also have to get my groceries and Zeus’ food, and pick up some pictures at Walmart, and grab the gift I ordered my mom for Christmas.  AFTER all that, I am hoping to be well enough to get out to Nicole’s on the weekend to visit her before my elimination diet starts.

kirkdebwed 055I am trying to find an adult Pug to adopt.  I want to be able to test them out with Zeus first to see if they get along first before I adopt them, but finding a damn dog near me, is impossible!  And Pugs seem to be swiped up really quick so it’s hard to get to them in time as well.  We shall see what happens.

Alright, going to finish Anderson and attempt a nap.



PS I also got to visit with my friend Theone and he little baby Aria again too 🙂


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Addy my mom's cat, sticking her tongue out

Addy my mom’s cat, sticking her tongue out

So I over did it and I crashed.  Literally for about 18 hours.  I should have expected it was going to happen bc I had been so tired, and yet I kept pushing myself.  I wasn’t doing a lot at once, but was doing something every day and BOOM my body decided that was enough.  So now I am on forced resting.  My crash day I think was Monday of this week, and I’m still exhausted!

moms 001Nicole and Adam were going to come get me Tuesday to spend the day at their house.  They were even willing to take me home that evening after dinner so I wouldn’t over do myself, but when I woke up Tuesday I knew there was no way I could go.  Nicole and I were trying to get a lazy day together just hanging out and watching movies, etc. before my big Crohn’s elimination diet starts at the beginning of September, but with the way my body is reacting, it doesn’t seem like that is likely to happen.

moms 002Yesterday was my sister’s 33rd birthday.  I called her opera style singing Back Street Boys to her, bc she loves it so much lol.  And we all came to mom’s including Carrie and Emily, and we got to celebrate with her.  Unfortunately the cake was rushed bc Amanda had to get to an appointment, but I was glad I at least got to see her for a bit.  I got her an M C Escher pop up book of his paintings.  She was having a hard time looking at everything with a sprained wrist, but she was in good spirits thankfully.  Mom got her a nice multi picture frame, with a bunch of photos of Amanda’s pets over the years.  Not all of them, but most, and two Dexter seasons 1 and 4 she didn’t have.  Good choices!

amanda33 008I was hoping dad would come up this week for her birthday, but I don’t think he is now bc he’s so busy at work.  I probably won’t see him until next weekend at my oldest brother’s wedding, and him and Lois have to leave right after for a trip, so they aren’t going to be at the reception, which sucks 😦  I tried on the skirt and shirt I am wearing to it, and thankfully it fits and matches, so I am good to go!

amanda33 009I am starting this little project, where I use mini bust photos of my family from my parents, and Lois down to the kids, and grand kids, etc. as a family tree, and putting it on my fridge.  I have tons of photos of everyone, but I can’t find far enough photos to fit in the little magnetic frames I have for it, or if I do, they’re too close to someone else for me to cut the other one out.  I am going to have to go through all of my facebook photos, and then through all my saved on disc pictures to find the ones I want.  Surely to God I should have them.  If I don’t, I am going to be harassing my immediate family members at Kirk’s wedding next weekend lol.

amanda33 007I think I have caught a cold.  It’s too soon to know for sure yet, but with this flip flopping weather I wouldn’t be surprised.  I feel drained out, stuffy and I have a constant tickle in my throat that drove me nuts last night in bed.

Going to go on the look out for more photos, but will write after the wedding next Saturday.


Absolute Zzzz’s

zoo 054I am so thoroughly pooped I can’t sit up lol.  I don’t know why I’m so bloody exhausted.

Wed. I went out for coffee with Amy.  She was one of my counsellor’s students that worked with me.  Earlier in the year, she lent me her Prior Learning Assessment portfolio since I am trying to finish mine.  So we met up so I could give it back to her and catch up with each other.

zoo 008I got Zeus a green laser toy.  I actually read a lot of bad comments about it after I paid for it lol, but Zeus really likes it.  And it runs for 15 minutes, and automatically shuts off, which I like.  I also was able to find a compressed catnip ball for him, which he loved the night I gave it to him, and since hasn’t touched it at all!

zoo 027On Saturday we went to the BBQ and Live Wild Animal show in Napanee at Total Aquatics down town.  Nicole and Adam met us there.  It was a lot of fun, but if I go again, I must remember a chair bc there was no seating, and sun screen since I am now a nice lobster color!  We all went over to Nicole’s afterwards and Nick got to play with her three cats Skadi, Loki and Buster, and loved her dog Jenna.  He even got one of her grown cucumbers!  Zeus got spoiled again when she gave him one of those neat cat toys… can’t remember the name, but it’s little cardboard pieces that dangle off a piece of metal line and it flops all over the place.  He really likes it.

zoo 035On the way home, they stopped for me to drop off my med. card, and pick up Zeus’ laser toy when it came in, and got dropped off at home.  Today I went to Future Shop with Grams bc she needed to get a keyboard, and I wanted to get a wireless printer that was on sale.  I’ve wanted wireless bc I don’t have room for it in my bedroom with so little plugs, and I just wanted something cheap and easy, to print knitting patterns, coupons, etc.  Very happy to finally have one.

Now Zeus and I are being lazy and I need to make dinner.  Thinking just a ceasar salad since I just want to sleep, not eat.  I was given some Bee Balm from Nicole, and the poor things are still in the pot leaning against the house bc I haven’t had the energy to go out and plant it.

zoo 073Dad’s supposed to come up to visit some time this week for Amanda’s birthday.  She turns 33 on Thursday.  And mom goes back to work for the first time since being off sick tomorrow.  Hopefully it won’t be too much for her.

Gonna head out and eat then snooooze.




zoo 081PS  Also started a beginners Tai Chi.  I got surprisingly sore from it, and mildly dizzy from standing bc of Dysautonomia, but it was doable and I enjoyed it 🙂

Speeding Summer

I cannot believe we’re already into August.  Before we know it, it’ll be Fall then Winter!

zeuspurse 012I’m reading this book, The Immune System Recovery Guide, by Susan Blum.  She explains how autoimmune diseases are linked and how by making life style changes, like diet, etc. can help bring the inflammation down in your body thus making you a lot better sickness wise.  Since all my illnesses are autoimmune diseases, I am going to be doing the work she does with her own patients in her clinic, here at home.  Starting with going on a gluetin, corn and soy free diet for three weeks, and introducing each back in individually to see if that part of my diet could be making some of my symptoms worse.  Will be starting this at the beginning of Sept. when I do my next big grocery trip, and will be noting any changes on here.

The Wild Cat Jungle show is this Saturday.  Mom, Grams, Nick and I will be going, and meeting up with my friend Nicole and her bf Adam there 🙂  I’m excited to see them!  Yay!!!

zeuspurse 005Mom was able to fix my old original vacuum that worked better on the rug for cat hair than the newer one, which she couldn’t fix, so I now have a vacuum that works WELL and I didn’t have to spend more money on a new one.  I did get my sister’s Xmas present, a toy for Zeus, and my camera battery ordered, so I’m just waiting for those to come in.  I’m hoping the camera battery will be in by the show, if not at least by my brother’s wedding!!!

zeuspurse 002Today I was able to get a new colander since the one I have is huge and clunky, and hard to clean, and a new dish drying rack for the same reason, and got Zeus a new brush and a compressed catnip ball that he rubbed into and then flailed all over the ground over lol.

zeuspurse 007For Zeus’ weight, and for health, I’ve been giving him less kibble so that it runs out by around 8pm, and then I give him an 8th of a can of wet food (he won’t even eat that much) to have over night ’til breakfast.  Bc he’s older, it makes it easier for him to go to the bathroom, but getting him to eat the wet food is another story.  I’ve tried warming it, I’ve added tuna, salmon and even chicken broth to it to entice him, and even sprinkled his favourite catnip and it doesn’t help continuously!  He’s so damn stubborn!!!

Tomorrow I am going out to coffee with an old student of my counsellors, and next Thursday will be my sister’s 33rd birthday.  Dad is supposed to come up for lunch between now and then too, which will be nice bc I miss him.

Going to head out to finish watching a Dakota Fanning movie, Now Is Good, about a girl dying of cancer.  It’s actually really good so far!

Will write soon!



PS Grams and aunt Kelly are back from Ireland.  I was brought a beautiful mug, a picture frame w four leaf clovers on it, and a dish towel from Portugal.