I used to work at an animal clinic. We had the vet’s dogs, and the cats that lived at the clinic. They became like my secondary pets bc I took care of them when I was working and grew to have a bond with them. Since then, all of them have passed away except Yowie my gorgeous sassy girl who has diabetes. She has lasted long than the healthier ones did! Sadly I heard Joey, my old boss’ dog was put down due to cancer. He could be a huge pain in my ass depending on how many times he needed to go out in a shift due to being given too many Timbits the day before (lol) and was totally spoiled rotten and knew it, but that dog had my heart. He made me laugh, and listened when he was told something. Very smart. Of course by now when he was put down, he was an old dog, but it’s still sad to think of him passing. He was a good, sweet soul. Time goes by too quickly…
This Friday I go to see my Neuro. I am going of course, but I don’t want to. I go to him for my POTS. He is an amazing doctor and I highly recommend him, and also is great to talk to you and explain things you may not understand. He just makes you feel comfortable. I only see him once a year, for a quick, how I am doing (never anything better) and I get a, it takes time to slowly build back up, and to keep doing what I’m doing. Then we’re done. I have felt a big difference from before I was on a beta blocker, and now after, but only to a degree. Yes I don’t feel like my heart is beating out of my chest, nor do I pass out like I did, but I still can barely stand still in any spot for very long. I do the slightest thing and I am out of breath. I try to slowly push myself to do more, and I feel the whole… one step forward, two steps back feeling. It’s exhausting trying to do barely anything… yet it seems, any specialists I’ve met to help with my POTS, assumes once the heart rate is regulated you are fine, which is NOT the case. POTS is an Autonomic Nervous System problem, not a heart problem! That’s my rant.
Getting loving looks from my Zeus, so I must go and snuggle. I also need to do the Beta tank and the girls big cage today and wash my hair if I can.