I’ve been in this crazy mode for research these last few days. All I want to do is look up stuff non stop and learn everything I can on the subjects that I love.
I’ve had some amazing insight lately from friends. And I finally feel like I know what I need to do to keep my head on straight without losing my shit. I’d been so stressed about where I was headed, that I already forgot to just enjoy the moments as they happen.
So much had been on my mind, I couldn’t figure out what I needed to do first. If you like getting tarot card intuitive type reads, go check out the page for my favorite things. I recommend them all that I listed, but Odin Paranormal went to bat and really helped me figure all this shit I had been going through out. Right now, any proceeds he makes is going to help with expenses from a relative who passed away, so the money goes to help the family out. The link to contact him is in the favorites page above.
Christmas was decent. My aunt from Toronto was down, and got to see all the kiddos and get new pictures of my great nephews and see family friends I don’t see as much any more.
I’ve been thinking the last almost 6 months of needing a change of scene. I need to build myself back up physically more before I take the plunge, but I’m considering moving. I have no idea where, but when I find it, I’m gone asap.
I’ve never stayed in one place long, and I feel like I keep searching for my home. I love where I live, but it’s never been a permanent place to me, and I’ve been here 7 yrs! Longest I have lived anywhere since I was a kid. Health has to come first though, since none of it can happen otherwise. I want to find somewhere that seems right. Home may be where the heart is, but it’s not settled for me to be yet I guess! It’s one of those, I’ll know when I find it. All I know for now, is it will be in North America. And most likely won’t be Ontario.
Before I got crohn’s, l was terrified of so many things I wanted to do. When I left the hospital. I decided no more and started living life on my terms regardless how scared I was, or what others thought. First thing I did was get my tongue and belly button pierced. Tongue ring sadly went after a decade bc of long term damage it would do to my teeth, but I don’t hold back.
If you’re scared to do something you know you want, just do it! You don’t want to live a life of regrets or what ifs. Grab the reins and start creating your story on your terms, your passions, and don’t let fear ever stop you! It’s the greatest feeling to just say, “Fuck it.” And do it anyways.
What big changes are on your horizons? What are you holding back on, that you’ve been wanting and too afraid to accomplish? Take a chance and see what happens!