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Shiva

36935714_10158100342414815_1921704557348388864_nWent to go to bed early after watching some live music, but ended up staying up talking to a friend giggling our asses off as per usual, and then went into her broadcast for her talk about Shiva.

Not going to pretend I know anything about the Hindu culture, but am interested in learning some more of the mythological stories.  Hearing the mantras after were very moving and had really strong energy.  I plan to do it again or learn some others.  I enjoyed it!

Got my one room half done.  Furniture moved around, now I just need to set up the altar space for where my reiki table is for now, until the craft room furniture gets sold.  Minus Gram’s sewing machine which is on loan.  Then all the reiki stuff will be moved in there.

Got offered to do a party of 6-10 people, and be their tarot reader for the night.  That will be fun!  And been getting daily reads out for people.  Really enjoying it!

Tomorrow or errr today I have my crohn’s infusion, and another test this Saturday, which may explain the fainting not being from dysautonomia at all, but from smoking.  That scares the shit out of me, but glad to get it done and know what I am dealing with.

My Grams celebrated her 89th birthday on the 6th, and my mom’s up on the 16th.  Amanda is finally home from the hospital and surgery after 1.5 months.

I have nothing else to write about, so I am going to end this entry on the story of Shiva I was told tonight, and a picture of how I envisioned him while listening to it.  Happened to be the first Google image I found.

For now… good morning?

Ash,

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Keeping Busy

My apartment looks insane right now. Most of my company is as weird as me and likes the kitchen floor too thankfully! It’s a disaser zone in here!

I’ve been busy between the two jobs and doing my weekly YouTube videos. Also have to teach a class tomorrow on reading auras and what they and chakras are, and I have my grandma’s 89th birthday to celebrate this evening!

I’m still tearing everyhing apart and getting it up for sale. Got a ton rid of thankfully and was even given some books and a few oracle decks, which I thought was sweet!

I got a really nice, used reiki table. It’s hanging out in my dining room for now. Chucking everything in my spare room out, to make it my reiki room. Way too much shit in there!

My friend Lyndsey gave me the great idea for a box, where I put all my worries, etc in. I’m going to do this, but then burn them all at each full moon. Let the bastards burn! Lol.

Hope you all had a great Canada and Independence Day this week!

Ash,

Heat = No

If I had the money, I’d be moving to Antarctica right now til this shit is over with. Yay for spending the whole Summer feeling like death!

A lot of amazing things has happened for me, since being approved for disability. I was able to move on my own, and get my depression into a good state. Now it effects me when my physical health does but that’s kind of a normal response. If you’re okay w being sick, then there’s a problem. I’ve been given pretty good dental, etc.

My gripe w the disability system is this… I am more than for parents of children making more money than a home w no children. I truly am, bc kids are expensive, and shouldn’t have to go without period. I do not think it’s fair for those of us who do not have children, to live below the poverty line. I am on disability bc I have physical health problems making it impossible for me to work to live. Now how the fuck am I supposed to live, if my source of income doesn’t give me enough to?

I’ve got two jobs now. One of which is when they need me to do a quick tarot reading, I do it, and I get $5. Cool. I can do that, but it’s not going to make up for what I need to pay bills, eat, and buy my pets food. So I have another job writing two articles a week, $15 an article. Still not enough for me, but way better thankfully, bc now I can eat in a month. Only problem is, Im feeling too sick to do the damn job! Hence why I’m on disability in the first place!

I’m all about putting out positive vibes bc things will work themselves out. I have money, so that’s great! But now I’m spending most of the day in bed sick bc I’m putting all my energy towards work and not getting better. So I either starve, or I have no semblance of a normal life. I could barely handle watching my moms dog yesterday bc I felt so horrible.

I’m having a bad day emotionally. Can you fucking tell? LOL. I’m good and will be fine w all of this once I am getting a regular paycheck. Just for today, I need to bitch and hide in my apartment from the world.

Ash,

Full Moon Spread

Found this cute 5 card spread, amd thought I’d share it wih yas to try. This is what I got:

Self Perception:

Best Qualities:

What You Give to Others:

What Fulfils You:

Unrecognised Potential:

What did you guys get? 🍓 Happy Full Strawberry Moon! 🍓

Ash,

Traveling

I have felt stagnant and bored lately. I am busy and have been having fun doing it, but i need a get away for a weekend. Might have to give the pops a shout and go see him a Lois for a couple of days.

I really want to go traveling. I don’t care if people think I’m nuts, but the idea of staying in haunted hotels, etc. fascinates me! I would love to do a road trip all over and get to see some places I’ve always wanted to, like the grand canyon and finally go on a vision quest, but then stay somewhere ghostly at night. Eeeee! Would be a trip.

I do want to get to more cemeteries this year. There is one semi near me, that was known for moving the headstones but not the bodies. That would be fun. And found out my step grandma Mary, is buried here in town, so would love to go see hers too. Do some grave rubbings too on the really old ones. Now if I could get to the village I grew up to do grave rubbings, that would be amazing. It’s a really old graveyard and I have a lot of family there too that were gone long before I was born.

I get this weird itch to purge things in my apartment every so often, so i am on that again! I hate having so much stuff, let alone stuff I’m not using. So unless I’m actively using it, or has some special meaning to me, I want it gone asap!

Going to see if I can post my monthly astrological videos for July here, which may be a problem w space limits, or on my website preferably.

Got a broadcast on Lyndsey’s Inner Circle tonight, where I’m doing the astrological animals for cancer signs, and have my own class to do this Friday, as well as the astrological videos for the 4 elements for next week to do. So going to head out and procrastinate doing it, by watching documentaries on YouTube on famous haunted places. Happy Summer Solstice!

Ciao!

Ash,

Found the Spark

I’ve been writing about how I feel I have lost my spark. I think life is creating that spark again.

This past week has been an emotional one for me. My medicine has gotten messed up, but new vitamins added which for the moment aren’t doing anyhing yet, bc I literally just atarted them, but they aren’t makijg me sick which is a plus. I went off my oral crohns medicine bc it hasn’t been working in years anyway, and he specialist was planning on taki me off them. I also started adding more essential oils to my regimen.

I had to go to the food bank this month bc i had no money after bills to buy myself food. Stressful living below the poverty line. I figured it out last nigt w a friend, and i livee off less than 9k a year. That’s very disheartening. I used to make more, more they changed the special diet allowance and took 100 away from me a month… hence no food.

I started my metaphysical classes last night and had a lot of fun w it. Only doing tsk classes a month, and hoping to get a part time job online for more money. Just really having a hard time physically right nowm which couod be bc of stress and poor diet.

I am also a guest speaker on my friend’s page. Right now i am doing alternatuve healing rituals, etc. I am doing that weekly.

I am still keeping up with the astrology videos on YouTube, but it’s been a struggle.

As well, I havs signed up for the psychic expo in October! Very excited for it, bc I want to be sure I am offering up the best I’ve got. It’s going to be a really hard day for me, but it will be worth it for the contacts. I wish I had someone who could be there w me to help if i need a drink or something, but i will get through it for one day.

Will try to keep you all updated w chsnges as they happen. Take care.

Ash,